[TealOrca12]

Hi all,
Last night I had a vivid dream that was very upsetting. In this dream, one of my closest friends had died, and I received an invite to his funeral. The other "layer" to this is that I used to have feelings for this friend - but have since gotten over them (years ago), and now see him as just a friend. In the dream I was so distraught because my boyfriend had never had the chance to meet the friend, and I regretted that.

Without looking this up on some website, I already know death doesn't necessarily represent actual death. I think it's more like a "new beginning," the death of one situation happens so a new one can arise. I'm wondering if this symbolizes the death of that friend meaning what he used to mean to me, and instead becoming more of just a close friend. It's weird that it would happen now, because I can honestly say I thought I resolved those feelings in 2009!

On another level, this friend lives on the east coast, where I am from. I will soon be going back to the west coast after completion of a huge project for my doctorate. A lot of people miss me and wish I would come back to the east coast, but I've resigned myself to stay out there for a lot of reasons. I wonder if there is some sort of guilt buried in my subconscious, too.

[chaselovely9]

What about you has recently changed? And then ask yourself what this friend represents to you. What's the first thing that pops in your head when you think about him. Then try to see that quality in yourself.