Not able to sleep

I'm posting mostly because I think I'm just lonely right now more than anything. I keep waking up at 3 in the morning. Been doing this for a month now. Can't go back to sleep.

Kept having dreams that there was a locked door (my house front door) and someone is trying to get in..I'm trying to keep it shut, it's locked, but they keep pushing and trying to open the doorknob. I'm looking through the keyhole but I can't see what's there. I forgot but that is a recurring dream.

One time I think someone really was trying to get in and I called 911. The police came out and didn't find anyone or anything. Now I'm not so sure if I dreamed it or not.

So anyway, now I'm awake and keep hearing all these sounds outside...oh that's the garbage pickup. Just realized that. Wow, they're early.

I'm starting a low dose of Seroquel in a few days to help with my sleep.

Saw pdoc yesterday. Lost 10 lbs this past month. It's been a rough month.

Thanks for reading.

If you dream the dream again, I would try to open the door to see who is out there. Recurring dreams recur because we aren't doing anything about the problem. When I use to have trouble sleeping because my husband was away, I'd get scared there were robbers, murderers, rapists out there trying to get in and hear noises; didn't help that we were in a two-story house with an easy entrance and windows in the walk-out basement level and two front doors, a screened porch and door there in the back, etc. I got disgusted with my fear and made myself open the basement door and go down there (there was a light) and walk through the entire house (all in the middle of the night, when I was sure there was a prowler about). I wanted to get the suspense over more than I wanted to keep feeling afraid of something I didn't know if it was there or not.

I finally realized that it was easier for me to have the fears I did when my husband was away than face my feelings about being alone and without my husband. I set up the house so it was like when my husband was home (he would come to bed after I had and be in the living room, lights on, reading or in the next room, working on his computer -- so, I turned on those lights so it "looked"/felt like he was home and had an easier time comforting myself and getting to sleep.

Getting back to sleep is harder for me though, too. I get up and have a bowl of cereal (the milk and having a full belly might help me sleep, just like it does a baby :-) and come here or work elsewhere on the Internet and get my head full of "interesting" things to think about and when I try to sleep again, about an hour later, I consider some question or problem I've read here or an answer I gave, etc. and just let my thoughts start wandering where they will along non-personal lines and they eventually wind down and I'm asleep again.