[badseed]

For 3 years I had random reoccurring dreams. Every dream was different and normal with normal dream scenarios and interactions with people I knew and people I didn't know. Just run of the mill everyday normal dreams.What was reoccurring about these dreams was the interaction I would eventually have with a awful presence I can't explain. I can only explain it's actions. As far as a description of it itself, I can't get my head around it to even begin to try and fathom details of this thing.The best I can do is call it a presence, and a really negative mean evil one at that.
This is how the dream would unfold: while dreaming and interacting with people in a dream state I would notice something slightly different about someone that was in my dream.
The difference was very slight.
It could be the way they moved was a little off or they fumbled with their words.
As soon as I noticed the mistake they made, I would become instantly aware that I was dreaming, that I was not alone and that I need to wake up pronto quick.
I would panic and scream until I woke up.
After waking up and going about my day, I would eventually talk to someone. All would be well until they did something weird that would catch my attention. I would then be aware I was dreaming, and in fact, still in the same dream I thought I had already woke up from, and that I needed to get out quick!
I would repeat this cycle 2 to 4 times in one dream.
The need to escape my dream was because of the overwhelming fear for what was in my dream with me.
Also as soon as I saw the unusual behavior in the person that was in my dream,I was unable to look them in the eyes. My eyes would become very heavy to the point of impossible to open, but only if I tried to look at them after I figured them out.
It was obvious that something unexplainable was in my dream with me, and for reasons unknown, would disguise itself as a person so it could interact with me, but because it wasn't a real person, it eventually messed up its facade. That's when I would notice the mess up and panic and scream myself awake.
I eventually got brave and plain sick of the harassment I was feeling from this thing, so instead of screaming myself awake, I would scream in its direction that I wasn't afraid of it, that I hated it, to f off, and leave me alone.
The only good thing that came from my experience is the ability to wake up while dreaming.Unfortunately the only thing I have been able to do while lucid dreaming is change the color of someones pants and keep myself from falling off a cliff.
I also suffered from night terrors when I was a kid.
I would dream I was almost covered in a web or bees were coming to get me so I would scream 3 times, (according to my mom)then run. Woke up every night standing in my living room. My mom found it quite entertaining.
What do you think these dreams meant?

[medkev13]

Firstly, you should really fill in your About Me section in your profile. I use that, believe it or not :P Night terrors can cause the evil presence sensation, among other recurring bad dream imagery.

Secondly, I want to say that while it may be tempting to call this a demon or spirit getting into your dream, I advise avoiding that answer unless all others are disproven (or the spirit one is absolutely proven, which would require acts of things like prophecy and whatnot...which is dangerous to get into if the case is that it IS something supernatural). So, presuming it's NOT a supernatural visit....

The evil presence (along with any negative characters in one's dream) are embodiments of your shadow self - the archetypal personification of your perceived flaws. Interesting that these flaws don't come out until something is fumbled on with an interaction. Are you putting on a facade to someone in your life? Are you trying to keep up a lie or a false face (like being someone at work that you aren't when you get home, say)? This evil presence could be the expression of distaste toward having to put on a face for different parts of the day, or whatever the facade might be. Whatever it is, though, it's something you haven't overcome yet and don't necessarily have the strength to overcome...otherwise when you went lucid you'd be able to out and out end the dream. That the subconscious holds you in dream mode tells me that the fear/distaste is so strong your mind is insisting on you facing it.

Just in case it IS supernatural, I'd like to offer you this, as well. I don't know what your religious/spiritual beliefs are, but I've lived as a pagan and as a Christian throughout my life (no, not simultaneously). Burning sage, and wafting it through your room, commanding any bad spirits/energies out (called "smudging") will clear your room; then line the perimiter with a stream of salt, and make sure you get the windows as well. That keeps them out. I've seen it work, and quite well at that. Some things are more powerful, and it's all faith based. The stronger your faith and moral fiber is, the more the being will have to fight. Regardless as to what it is...if you are Christian it HAS to obey the commands of Christ. All you have to do is pray that it be cast out, and cast it out with faith that God will protect you and the spirits must bend to its authority. Also have had to use this. It creates a fight but God always wins. Always. So if you face off with this dark presence, and it does something that convinces you it's not just part of your dream, but an outside force...just command it out in the name of Christ. The other methods still work even if you're Christian. I don't know why. I don't pretend to know. They just do.

[badseed]

Thank you for your reply.
I had these dreams as often as 2 nights a week for 3 years straight.
I don't like to get into why they stopped because it makes me look crazy even though it is 100% what happened to me.
I started fearing that I was going to get stuck in one of those dreams because they were getting harder to wake up from.
The presence was getting closer to me every dream as well, then the last dream I had it didn't bother disguising it's self and just came right at me.
I started screaming to wake up and just as I was getting out of the dream that presence had got into me.
I didn't think anything of it at the time.
I was foggy headed and lethargic the next day.
I didn't feel sick but didn't feel well either.
Then for 3 months I completely lost my mind.
I was engaging in high risk activities with strangers by pursuing the dark side of sex along with all the other stupid stuff I was doing,
I had no care for anybody but myself and almost destroyed my relationships with my family and boyfriend.
I write in a diary and have since I was a kid and the entries during that time are so different than I normally write.
I had even changed my name.
Then just as quickly as it started, it stopped.
I think it could of been a possession or a manic episode.
What do you think?
This all happened between 2005 and 2008.

[medkev13]

NEVER credit the supernatural when the abnormal will do just fine.

If it was possession there would be much worse activities, and the issues would continue. It does fit with a hypomanic episode. The presence in-dream could have been the personification of your manic side rising to the surface.

[badseed]

After reading about hypomania I am now convinced that is what it was. If I ever have those dreams again, I will know its a warning to bring down my stress or suffer the consequences. Lol.
Thank you again Medkev13.

[medkev13]

Hypomania isn't just caused by stress. If you haven't yet, you might want to get in with a therapist and state your concern that you might be bipolar, and that you think you've had a hypomanic episode in the past.

Glad to help