Ever dreamt about this?

*TRIGGER WARNING* (mention of sui)



So the other night I had a dream that I was going to commit suicide. In the dream I was catching a train (or bus?) to this bridge in my city because I wanted to jump off it. I got of the train/bus and realised I was way too scared to actually do it and I didn't really want to die. I walked around a bit and ran into some friends so I hung out with them and pretended everything was normal despite the fact that a few minutes ago I was going to jump off a bridge.

I have had a dream about committing suicide before (several months ago) where I was in a high rise building and I was crying and there were people in the room who knew me but ignored the fact that was visibly upset and standing on the ledge of the window. I think I may have jumped in the dream but I woke up before I hit the ground.

The weirdest part about these dreams is that I wasn't particularly depressed when I had them. In fact, I am feeling better than usual at the moment. What is also strange is that a reacurring theme in almost all my dreams is that when I am upset people either ignore me completely or acknowledge me but dismiss my emotions... What could all this mean?

You must be bored by commom socail situations. Jumping out the window is leaving them behind into the uncertain unknown. You are ready to make socail changes in your life. You desire more intellegent caring people in socail situations.