[shortandcute]

I had a dream last night that I was living in a concentration camp. This camp was part of a building that allowed different churches to have services and Bible studies (in fact some churches pulled together and bought the builiding; the people running the camp rented their part of the building). The churches seemed totally oblivious to what was going on in the other part of the building.
I was allowed special favors from them, like bieng allowed to leave on weekends and other stuff, because I did "special favors" for the people who worked there. I hated it. The prisoners who tried to escape were killed and were made into sheets.
I was talking to a couple of my friends when I was out on "leave," about wanting to find a way to escape; one of them suggested that, since I was allowed to leave on weekends, I could leave one time and just not come back. I said I couldn't do that because they would just find me and kill me and recycle me as a sheet. So she said, "Suit yourself."
Once I was back in, I decided I would try to do something. Since I had a little more freedom than the other prisoners, I decided to go to the religious sections and see if I could get them to do something about it. Everybody just ignored me or acted as if they had no idea what I was talking about. One lady even pitched a fit and threw a lited candle at me and told me to leave them alone!
So I wandered around trying to figure out what to. I came across a gate that was hooked, but a little worn down, and had a gape in it just big enough for me to slip through. After much contemplation, I slipped through it. I hesitated for a minute afterwards, because I wanted to make sure no one was after me; then I woke up.
Creeped me out.

[sweathers81]

wow, ive never heard of people getting turned into sheets. that was weird. i wish i could tell ya what it meant. sorry

[shortandcute]

I think I might have an idea what it meant, judging on my own experiences, I always felt kind of "imprisoned" by my mental illness, and always wondered if it didn't have something to do with why I had a sexual addiction (the "special favors," and the sheets).
The church part had to do with me trying the church scene and it never working out; in fact in some ways it made me worse because of the adament denial of mental illness in my case--it was always that I wasn't giving enough money to the church, wasn't right with God, etc. As far as me being able to leave the grounds, I think it was because a lot of people have tried to help me out and I did have times when I felt more "sane." At the end, when I escaped, I think it was because I feel like I am finally getting the help I need, but not in the way I originally thought (thru the church way). As far as me looking up, and worrying about getting caught: sometimes I am afraid that God is going to punish me because I'm taking meds and seeing a psychiatrist, instead of depepnding on the church to help me out.

[Thunder Bow]

You learned the Church is a self serving institution, that is usually blind in nature. "suit yourself" indicates the sheets, and how blind you may have been and conforming to other people ways. Thus being turned into a white sheet.

You did escape, disspite feeling guilty about it. You moving in a positive direction.

[allimsaying]

Its cool to hear you think you're getting the help you need now. Maybe that's the purpose of this dream, to show that some thoughts and feelings are freeing up and its a safe time to be dealing with them? I'm not a church member, or even christian really but I hope you can begin to work out some of the guilt you're feeling. To me god is only love and guilt is not a game he/she plays. I think god is riding right beside you tho when you have these true moments of honest self revelation.

[Thunder Bow]

Originally Posted by allimsaying

Its cool to hear you think you're getting the help you need now. Maybe that's the purpose of this dream, to show that some thoughts and feelings are freeing up and its a safe time to be dealing with them? I'm not a church member, or even christian really but I hope you can begin to work out some of the guilt you're feeling. To me god is only love and guilt is not a game he/she plays. I think god is riding right beside you tho when you have these true moments of honest self revelation.

Is god riding a horse and has long Lakota braids?

[allimsaying]

Originally Posted by Thunder Bow

Is god riding a horse and has long Lakota braids?

Personally I think gods image can be a personal choice. I see him/her as the emotion love. I'm not sure he/she does a lot of thinking. Just loves. The lakota braids and horse are a cool image tho. I like it.