What do these dreams mean?

Lately I've begun having 2 kinds of dreams. One kind involves having major arguments with my wife & my parents (my parents are both deceased) where I leave the house & have the unalterable feeling that because of what has happened I can never go back again.

The second group of dreams involve suicide. Last night I dreamed that I was in a bathroom, I think it was. I opened a drawer & there was a small revolver in it. I took it out & realized that I could kill myself right then & there. But then, I thought that I shouldn't do it & as I looked at the gun, I decided it was probably too small a caliber to do the job anyway & I'd probably just end up wounded but still alive. That's all I remember of it.

Of course, one thing I know is that I'm having these dreams because these types of things are on my mind. But I also wonder if the fact that I'm having these dreams suggests anything with regard to what's going on in my sub conscious.

Fear of Rejection. Also knowing you can never go back to your parents in real life.

Small gun means a small desire to commit suicide. It is something you don't feel like doing.

All dream images come from the sub conscious.