[connect.the.stars]

I find that I am constantly waking up at the 3 hour mark (two REM cycles) and then can't go back to sleep or end up waking every 1.5 hours after that. Reasons I have trouble falling back asleep are because 1) I get obsessive thoughts about my problems 2) I feel scared or nervous 3) I get chest pains and breathing problems 4) I feel lonely and can't go to bed without having talked to someone.

Given the hours I wake up, it's not reasonable for me to interrupt my working friends in the middle of the night. I usually message my international friends since it is their lunch time or something.

I feel like a little kid, needing someone to soothe or calm me down to go back to sleep. I can't ask for that from my family since we are on bad terms right now. And I was forced to break up with the one soul who would stay up with me when I couldn't sleep...

I wish there was a way for me to tackle my anxiety. Sleeping at home does not help. I dread waking up. Sometimes I will fake still being asleep when my dad comes into my room to stare at me sleeping. I get really nervous and want him to leave.

[kaliope]

that would creep me out having somebody stare at me sleeping too. why on earth would he do that? maybe try some relaxation tapes before bed to relieve your anxiety before you go to sleep.