[Baleful]

I don't want to fall asleep. I don't even feel tired- it's 2:30 a.m. and I need to wake up at 5:30. I mean, sure sometimes people have these days, but this is an every day thing. It's not that I have horrible nightmares, fear of darkness, or anything of the sort. It's like I dread each new day- I fear that if I fall asleep, then I will wake and have to live again. For me, days are not determined by hours or the sun. It's by my sleep schedule, which is slightly different every day. It's been getting ridiculous though: I've been getting about 3 hours of sleep a day on average, and I'm a teenage high school student that should probably be getting more. By the middle of the day, I'm so tired. Of course the simple solution would just be to go to bed, but there's always this thought- "I'd rather die than wake up in the morning." Of course, staying awake will never solve anything. I know that... But even then, I just can't.

[Thunder Bow]

As most will say to you here. Time to seek some counseling or therapy about your feelings. This seems like you have deep depression. You do need help with this.

[avlady]

Yes, its time you see a doc about this problem it could get worse, or you could just have a sleep disorder like sleep apnea or another one. I have sleep apnea, i used to be up all night and sleep in the day until i had a test done and i sleep with a sleep apnea machine now which changed my whole sleep cycle for the better. now i sleep for 8 to 10 hours a night and wake up refreshed more than i used to. I never did feel like i had enough sleep and wished i was dead every morning. I hated waking up in the morning, i'm am still working on that, but after my first cup of coffee in the morning it isn't as bad.