[Moonstruck]

April 30, 2015

I dreamt I was standing in line at a bank with my husband when I saw a couple of people acting panicked and running into a room and shutting the door. Then someone came out to get another person who worked there to help. I could see a woman lying on the floor in that room and someone else doing CPR on her. I asked the person as they were going by if I could help, that I knew CPR and really wanted to try and help.(somehow I knew she was choking on something). So my husband and I went in, but he went the wrong way and I was right there by the woman. They had her face covered with a black jacket so you couldn't see that she looked dead. I could see her arm bent up like she was strained and I touched her to see if she was stiff and she wasn't. So I started CPR compressions on her to try and dislodge what she was choking on. I remember thinking that I wasn't feeling her ribs crack like I should. So I tried repositioning my hands but couldn't quite get them right. I kept compressing but it just wouldn't come out. Finally I smelled this horrible smell that I knew was death, so I stopped compressions. I wasn't able to help her so she died. When I got up to leave they had taken the jacket off her face and it was someone I had been acquaintances with years ago (only not really, I do not really recognize her). I only recognized her in my dream. I remember feeling so scared for her and her face being covered up was really scary too because I could only imagine what her face looked like as she choked to death. The position of her arm, so strained like that was terrifying too. What in the world could this crazy dream mean? It has stuck with me all day.

[MusicMike]

Thunder Bow is sure to have some good commentary on this tomorrow morning, but I will say a few things now.

This woman who dies is someone you were last acquainted with years ago, so she could represent some part of you that you haven't been acquainted with in some time, and in fact something triggered your fear that this part of you would die completely. Are you aware of anything in your life that you may have given up a long time ago, some capacity or ability, some hope or dream?

Mike

[Moonstruck]

Thank you for your reply. I accidentally posted a quick reply but I'm not sure where it went lol. I'll retype just in case. I worked with children years ago when my kids were younger and loved my job. I decided to go work in an office instead (more money) and was absolutely miserable. I did that for 4 years and I just couldn't do it anymore so I decided to go back to the school. I recently started subbing with special needs children and I couldn't be happier with what I'm doing. I'm not permanent yet but have worked with the same group of kids for 5 months now. I was wondering if the dream meant that in my subconscious I am doubting my abilities since special needs is a new thing for me?? Even though in my waking life I really feel like this is my calling. I'll think some more about what you asked and see If I can come up with anything deeper. Thanks again!!

[MusicMike]

Certainly your hopes and dreams are at play, and that sounds like a positive development in your life. I notice a couple other things about the dream. One is that you are with your husband until the moment you enter the room with the choking woman, and then he is gone. So this suggests that the dream has something to do with your own life independently of him. Second, she is choking for lack of air, can't breath. People sometimes talk about "breathing room" or "breathing space" in a relationship.

[Moonstruck]

I know, that's what's strange and why I can't make sense of the dream...my life has taken some really positive turns here lately. I really look forward to my job every day now. And as far as my husband, he doesn't smother me at all. But I can see where that could be something to consider. He does work a lot though, and it seems like whenever something major happens he's never here at the time to deal with it so it always falls on me. So it doesn't surprise me that he wasn't there in this dire situation as well. He is, however, a good provider and very supportive which is why I was able to leave the job I hated and follow my dreams. This dream was super scary on so many levels but mainly it was the unknown part that was the scariest. Like what I imagined her face would look like under the jacket and the agony she must have been in for her arm to be so strained and what it looked like. Even though when they finally took the jacket off her face it looked fine.