[Caveman]

I was an unmature and bullied outcast in ground school.

I've had two recent dreams that take place in school, they are the two last dreams I remember.

1: All I remember is going bezerk and strangeling a bunch of guys in the classroom. Showing my dominance? Maybe they did something to provoke it and I snapped.

2: This takes place in the lunch room at school. I remember having a outbreak in the lunch room. Tossing chairs around, then I commplain on how small the food stand
is because we couldn't all fit around it, maybe I dropped my food wich caused the outbreak. It's all very angry.

It's like in these dreams I'm acting out stuff that I would of wanted to do in real life. It is true, I have a lot of rage inside me. My parents always tell me that my eyes
turn black when I have a outbreak at home. I throw stuff around like it wieghs nothing, I punch walls without feeling any pain and I scream as loud and furious as I can
into a wall. All this just to get the rage out of my body.

A few months ago when I had an outbreak I punched a wooden wall and broke two of my knockles. I didn't feel any pain untill like a minute after. My whole hand was
swollen and we spent the night at the hospital. I wonder why I have all this rage inside me, just waiting to be released as soon as I feel a little distress. According to my
parents i've been having these outbreaks since I was 4. I'm 18 now. I can feel it inside me, all I need is something to trigger it and hell breaks lose.

[Thunder Bow]

You are frustrated about some thing. You might want to work this out with a Therapist. The dreams do show you do have much anger in you.

[MusicMike]

I can relate to grade school bullying and having a lot of rage inside.

I second Thunder Bow's opinion that a therapist could help. Also there are psychiatric illnesses that cause irritability, so a psychiatrist could make a possible diagnosis.

How do your parents react to these outbursts? How do they relate to you at these times?

[Caveman]

Well, my parents are soon out of the picture. I move from home this year.

I'm diagnosed with Asperger Syndrome, OCD, ADHD. And they have always done their best to learn about my conditions, by going to group meetings and lectures about the conditions. But these conditions are very unpredictable and complicated. It's very easy for them to treat me like a normal person, because I look normal and mostly act normal, so they forget.

I could talk to my therapist about my outbursts, and maybe she will suggest that we get it diagnosed.

[MusicMike]

I recommend talking to your therapist. She might even take a look at your dreams if you want her to.

I have OCD and a type of irritability that comes from bipolar II, which together have led to periods of rage (most of which I turn inward rather than outward). It took me a while in therapy to understand that it's not my fault I'm irritable and in pain, and that it's not my fault that OCD tends to amplify these things.

How do you feel when your parents treat you like a normal person?