Reoccuring dreams about high school...

I have this frequent dream that I am back in high school, either my mother decided that my grades weren't good enough the first time around and makes me repeat it so I can achieve better ones, or I am just there as my teenage self. If it's me being sent back to high school again, I usually feel mortified and degraded that I have to be back there.

Either way, I get confused about or forget which classes I'm supposed to go to, usually missing them, and I forget to do my homework and start failing that class. In my dream, I can usually get reasonable grades in one or two classes, but not all of them. I'm so afraid of having to disappoint my mother with bad grades, of the guilt that I let her down. It's the worst feeling in the world in these dreams.

That's when I retreat to the library. I often find that I'd rather spend my time in the library than trying to hunt down the classrooms and do the schoolwork. The library is where I get lost looking for books to read, spending the whole day just browsing the shelves. Sometimes, the dream lasts long enough for the school days to end and I usually wind up missing the school bus, because I'm late to get to the bus parking lot, and I have to walk all the way home. Sometimes I get so lost along the way that it seems hopeless that I'll ever get home.

Then I usually wake up.

I just wish I could stop having these dreams....

"I need to retrain my validation, and create a home environment where I feel loved and accepted"

By validation I mean: To validate yourself and your own self worth.

This dream makes me wonder if you are formed by the expectation of others more then your own design. I think you need to release the bonds put on by family/society/religion and allow yourself to be you.

This poem is for you to reflect on. I have highlighted the line I think is pertinent for you at this time.

Desiderata by Max Ehrmann

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others,
even to the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain and bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations, in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace with your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

Your browsing through your own inner knowledge in this dream. You missed the bus, because you no longer want to fill others expectations. The dreams seems to indicate that you are maturing.

I also have the recurring school dreams, usually in college. I am late for class, or didn't do my assignments. Can't seem to get to class. Also, dream of being a teacher and can't make it to my students, who are already in the classroom.

Seeker - the name fits.

I am in my 50's and I still get high school dreams sometimes all though they are always where I can't get my locker open to get my things out of. Most frequently I have a dream of being late to an airport and missing an airplane (even when I am not going to go on a plane). Anyone know what this means?