[Nemii]

I find myself trapped in a large farm house, it's dark and the windows are dirty so very little light is exposed. I always end up on the second floor walking down a narrow hallway coming up from a spiral stair case. I feel like someone is following me but I don't turn around. I'm anxious but I keep going like someone else is in control of my body.
I come to the end of the hall and there are two doors on either side of the hallway. I look out the window and I can see trees and tall grass, I think it's beautiful but a the door to the left opens and I hear someone walking up behind.
Its dark so I can't see very well but I go into the room, in the room it's even darker in this room. Theres a small metal bunk bed on the far end of the room with one small mattress on the bottom bunk and a desk looking out the window. I hear the noise getting louder, and I'm scared. I can't speak or scream for help no matter how hard I try. I won't go into the closet, or hide under the bed but want to hide but now I'm trapped.
I sit on the bed, it's dirty and stiff but familar, in fact the house is too.
I try to scream again, but I can't breathe.
The door opens and all the light goes out.
I can feel the heavness, I feel like I can't breathe, I panic.
I feel like I can see someone but all I can see is darkness-- the face is never clear.
I feel cold.
I thrash, and sometimes I get away.
Sometimes I don't and wake up.
When I get away I'm running blind. Like a running through a tunnel, it's too dark but I run like I know the way out, like I know where I'm going but I don't think I'll get away.
And I don't. I feel hands grabbing my ankles and I fall in dirt.
Not carpet, not on a floor, dirt.
I try to scream for help, but nothing comes out.
I feel like I can see a face but I never remember what it looks like.
Then out of no where I see a huge oak tree with a tire swing and I wake up.

Sometimes it's so intense I vomit, sometimes I wake up crying, sometimes I can't breathe.
I've had the same dream so many times and for so long I know whats coming but I can't stop myself.
I've tried taking little steps to tell myself im dreaming, like looking at my hands. Or my feet but I can't break the cycle of this dream.

I don't feel like it's a very deep dream or anything but it's terrifying.

[SorryShaped]

There's a lot going on, but the answer is simple... and you won't like it. Let the dream happen fully. Don't try to wake up, or fight, or run. Let it take you, completely. It won't be easy. Rest assured that you cannot die from a dream, even when you die in the dream. I've died over and over in my dreams and I'm still here.
Being trapped in your dreams isn't fun. It's terrifying. It's also essential sometimes. If you still aren't getting relief and it's that much torture, ask your pdoc about prazosin. It takes away nightmares.

[Thunder Bow]

Your mind is trying to recall a repressed childhood memory. Where you ever abused or molested as a child?

[RainyDay107]

I take Prazosin for PTSD nightmares. I hope you feel better. I’ve had nightmares all my life, I feel for you.

[Nemii]

Thank you guys for responding, I honestly had NO clue that there was such a thing medication that can subdue nightmares. I'll certainly have to check into that because this has been a problem for years.
This is just one of my recurring nightmares, but this one tends to happen more often.
As for the possibly of a repressed memory I have no idea. I can't recall but a handful of memories from ages 6 to 15 and only a few things like smells or objects. And before six I have absolutely none, I don't think that's all that abnormal. I wouldn't say I was abused but I was certainly neglected.
In my early teenage years and all through my mid twenties yes, abuse has been a normal occurance but that I don't believe is relavant to this dream since it's been happening longer then the abuse.
Bleh, it's confusing to think about and the funny part is the more I sit and try to dwell on it the farther I get from it and it feels like I'm in a movie or something. It's hard for me to really sit and think on all this because it all just gets more and more hazy. Blehh.

[Thunder Bow]

Your brain is trying proess supressed memories of past abuse. That is why you keep having these kind of dreams.