[sinking]

I just woke up dreaming where i was in my bed in my old HOME trying to fall asleep and in the limbo where i was already half asleep.

I was dreaming i was emitting sounds to catch my mom or brothers attention. I wanted to tell them to make a magic and make me be a 4 year old going to maternal school.

I wanted it so intensely i was willing to give up on all i know now and be that innocent again, or even younger.

As for when i wake up to another dream this kept happening with me 3-4 times in my bed trying to sleep but also calling my mom crying and begging her to make me be a baby.

I still want to be a baby and im still crying. I dont want this life where im an adult. I don t want it.

[Skeezyks]

[Eyes of Blue]

Lying in bed sleeping would imply being in a situation in which you are resting completely at ease while being in a state of unawareness. Yet here you are only "half asleep" which is evidence that the True Self would not be resting so completely at ease here. The"old home" would refer to a previously lived in dwelling and implies going back to using a mental attitude from the past - which is not a progressive way of thinking. Home represents a state of mind in which you can feel comfortable with your own opinions and beliefs. Yet here, by capitalizing the word HOME, it indicates that you are giving a great deal of importance to a way of thinking that belongs in the past.

Emitting sounds to catch the attention of your mother or brothers implies that you are simply making noises as could any irrational animal. The lack of words implies that these sounds do not convey "thought" but are purely emotional utterances. While you want to call upon "mother" - who provides for a child's emotional needs, the True Self would instead think you could call upon the brothers who represent logical thinking. You are asking that the family members suspend their & your understanding of reality (make some magic) so that you might again be an innocent child - something that would not happen in everyday reality.

When thinking very innocently - without knowledge - (as a 4 yr old), you could see yourself going to maternal school.This school can suggest a school of thought or philosophy, one which puts the emphasis upon a mother's care. This could be suggesting that what you really want is not simply to be a baby or young child again but that what you are looking for is mother's care and attention - probably because from your child's perspective you felt a lack of attention.

The whole point of this dream seems reflected in the fact that you wake several times, fall back asleep and repeat the same dream. This pattern implies that while you do come to a greater state of awareness (wake up) you repeatedly fall back upon the same "dream " or fantasy. In other words you are not moving on from this "dream".