[Warrioress]

I'm so disappointed in myself. I used to be a regular smoker. I smoked very little, like two or three times a WEEK, but regularly. Then I quit and I promised my beloved karate teacher who is a very pure and healthy person (in every way) that I would never smoke a cigarette again. I've broken that promise several times though. Well, not several times but quite a few times. The last time was the night before last. It was raining and I was out in the yard and smoking without a care in the world and it felt so right at the time. It feels wrong only when I'm with my karate teacher and only because SHE's such a good and healthy and nice person and I feel guilty about breaking my promise to her. I feel terribly like smoking right now, but I don't want to go back to being my lousy self and it's so effing difficult to resist the urge!

[**Angel**]

Smokings not easy to give up, I would know, I have tried to give up as well, so fair enough. But why not check out these pages from TheSite.org on smoking

http://www.thesite.org/audioandvideo...ogiveupsmoking
http://www.thesite.org/audioandvideo...ing-up-smoking
http://www.thesite.org/drinkanddrugs...ygiveupsmoking

Take care, and hope you view them all

Hi Warrioress!

There's reason to be disappointed but don't beat yourself up. That will only make things worse and make you want to smoke more. I have found in my recovery it's sometimes easier to do something if I want it for myself and not wanting it because somebody else wants it for me. I understand looking up to your karate instructor, that's truly great and to want to change for somebody else is noble. Just don't be too hard on yourself. We all slip here and there.

Love and hugs,
Tara