[vacantangel]

A bunch of you post to me several times to try and help me, I make a HUGE effort to change, my posts are now using the STA method. I make comments and ask questions to specific people in that thread and 3 of you virtually ignore any of that. What was the point? I'm HURT, REALLY, REALLY HURT!!! From my point of view it appears that you've given up on me and I'm now non-existant. It's all beginning to feel like a total waste of time. Carry on!!!

[LMo]

So much for my break...

Angel, I want to acknowledge that you wrote this and acknowledge that your responses to the posts we made were excellent. But, I am not going to address what you wrote here because I think you should think a little harder about how WE might feel in response to what you wrote above.

[nothemama8]

Sweetie they may not be on yet give it time, slow down , deep breathes
Angie

[h0kie]

I agree with Angie. People are in and out all day long. When I work, I find myself exhausted when I get home. Sometimes I don't even have the energy to post. I skim posts just to mark them read...then I come back later and post a reply.

You have to give us some time sweetie.

[nothemama8]

AG , I'm walking on egg shells here, calm down
You can please some of the people some of the time. and none of the people all of the time. Let it go those of us who have answered should be enough to let you see PEOPLE nobody can recieve 100% answers hun, stop being so hyper-sensitive
Angie

[kimmydawn]

AG, i rarely pop in but i want to say that you're making strides. i want you to also know that you said and did what you felt what was best in this situation. that HAS to be ok for you whether it's ok for anyone else or not (btw, i'm not saying it's not ok for anyone else...just making my point).

honey, slow down and think about the past few days, and know that you did what you needed to do for you...and simply breathe the rest away. you've done good. move onto the next issue that needs your attn, whatever that might be.

be safe,

[SeptemberMorn]

Lord, AG! None of us can give 100%, 100% of the time! Personally, I'm feeling exhausted from everything that has gone on here in the last few days. I've only got so much I can give! Accept the responses you've gotten and work on them while the rest of us take a much needed break, ok?

It's also very helpful to remember that not all of us have something to say on any given subject... maybe the last post we made was all we had. There's also a good posibility that some of us are doing research on one of your questions.

I'm exhausted mentally and emotionally! I've also caught some flack for the way I write, so maybe my own emotions are a bit beat up right now. Did you think of that?

[nothemama8]

I have the biggest urge to have a pity part-ay, besides bouncing around here , my alters getting triggered, and getting a spring cold I'm about done in.
Angie

[SeptemberMorn]

Do like the rest of and take a break, Hun. Can't wear yourself out, then you won't be any good to anyone.

[nothemama8]

Arrrgggghhhhh, Hospital released Christie, one of our members , had Pnemonia, now needs Menta; Health realllllll bad
Angie

AG, after I spent most of the day with my family, I logged on and read what you wrote last night....I noticed the time line. You came on around 9:20ish and when no one had answered you by about 10:10, you were furious. I remember checking your times. We all have other things that we do. We have families, friends, obligations, responsiblities, etc. We also rest and work and eat and sleep. No one is going to sit in front of their computer to answer everyone else's posts...it just isn't the way the world works. I had told myself that I wasn't going to get involved in this again, but I did want to try to present a reasonable scenario for what goes on outside our computers. Pat

[jmo531]

(((((((AG))))))))

I try my hardest to reply and offer advice on any post i can. Sometimes I cant relate though. I hope that you feel that I have always been there for you when you needed me. At least I have tried.

[nothemama8]

Well Im back very hard day so far, I had to call crisis for Christie, I had to sign the 203 papers on her to have her admitted, am in over this, but I couldn't have her hurting herself, I see no one has gotten a reply from AG, OMG this is the hardest part of my job, and I feel selfish, NOW I WANT SUPPORT FRPM ANGELGIRL , I have given you so much, now I need support from you, I know the others will be here for me how about you?
Angie

[SweetCrusader]

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What was the point? I'm HURT, REALLY, REALLY HURT!!! From my point of view it appears that you've given up on me and I'm now non-existant. It's all beginning to feel like a total waste of time. Carry on!!!

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AG, why did you make comments and ask questions?

WHY did you apply the things that other people shared with you?

what IS the point? You tell us?

Was it for us or you?

[nothemama8]

It isn't why ppl aren't replying to you it's when are you going to change, you said you are applying what was posted, I want to know when are you going to change, it is possible, so many of us have grown up, in worse shape than you, you are just proving that you want the control here.

[nothemama8]

This was written in anger, frustration, and Im soooooooo tired, I didn't use STA, Please ppl forgive me this was a mistake, and I couln't delete it
Angie

I'm really sorry that you had such a hard day, NTM...I can tell you're feeling really frustrated and hurt because you need support. I certainly will keep you in my thoughts tonight and hope that tomorrow brings a better day for you........pat

[mortimer]

You shouldn't take things personally, people miss threads sometimes. It's hard to keep track of things people might have posted in at times and they may not completely remember how many threads or exactly where etc. etc. to post.

You make a lot of threads that get a good amount of responses, no one's ignoring you.

[vacantangel]

I'm only going to make a few comments.

1. First, I'm really sorry that some/all of you had a rough day/going through a rough time right now and I will keep y'all in my thoughts and prayers. I'm sorry for what y'all are having to deal with, some of which I guess is me. PM me if you want further contact from me and I'll continue to support you.

2. For those of you who have recognized the changes I've already made, THANK YOU. That means a LOT to me that you've noticed because you are in the minority.

3. Some of you have stated things as 'facts'. They're not. I went back and reviewed things in that thread. (ie: timelines)

4. I'm NOT going to justify my feelings to any of you. Feelings aren't right or wrong. They just are. Yours and mine. We're all entitled to them.

5. Short of a few people who have responded in this thread, some of you JUST DON'T GET IT!!!! You just don't REALLY read my words. You think you do but you read into them what you want and not what they're actually saying. Maybe some objectivity might help. But I think most of you are beyond anything to do with me anymore. Fine, I can't change what anybody thinks about me. Y'all are going to think whatever you want to think, regardless of what I say.

I'm not going to address any specific things any of you said, although I could very easily. To be honest I'm just sick of it and I know some/most of you are too.

THIS ISN'T A SELF-ESTEEM FORUM, IT'S A BATTLEFIELD.

And I'm not the only one who feels this way. I've received PMs from people who are AFRAID to post in this forum because of all the GANGING UP and fighting that takes place. Not my words, theirs.

Maybe some people need to step back and look at the big picture and really examine what is actually going on in this forum before there is another casualty. How many have there been now? Maybe you're going to justify each of them away.

As much as I need to work on my self-esteem, I think it is far healthier for me to do it off of this forum.

For those of you who still want/need to talk with me, you can PM me. I'm outta here. I have to do this for my own self-preservation.

I'm sorry for those of you who are hurt by my words. I've made some good friends on this site and I don't want to lose them. If however, you are one of those people who I consider to be a friend and my actions now change your mind about being friends with me, well, I'm going to be the loser to lose such a wonderful friend. I hope my friends will still be with me. Time will tell. You don't have to agree with me to be my friend.

And one last thing, I'm NOT furious. I'm HURT!!! There is a difference. A BIG DIFFERENCE!!! Like I said, I could counteract all of your comments but I'm choosing not too. I don't think some of you really care anymore anyway.

And finally, I wish you all good luck with improving your self-esteem, SERIOUSLY!!! That is not a sarcastic comment.

Thanks for the benefits I've received up to this point but this forum is waaaaaaaaay too triggering for me to stay. I need a peaceful environment in which to learn, not a minefield. I'm sure some of you will be happy about my departure because you've already written me off anyway. For those who won't be, I'm sorry. I just can't do this anymore. I hope to receive PMs from those that still consider me a friend to let me know. I'll be dissapointed to not get them but I guess I only have myself to blame for that.

So again, to everyone Good Luck!!! I wish y'all well.