10 things I hate about myself/I like

I was trying to come up with a screen name for this site. I did not want to use one of the other few I use. I wanted to be anonymous just in case someone from another site (not mental health sites) recognizes a certain name. I thought maybe to do a name based on something I want to be able to do but cannot. Eventually I think it took like a day, I came to the name I have.

you are still being unable to accept the simplest compliment.

Uncreativeartist, you were showing creativity by coming up with something you aren't but would like to be, and then reversing it It was a clever idea, own it!

It really isn't.

If there was a facepalm emoticon, I would use it. As there isn't, this will have to do:



You can NOT tell me that I am wrong in thinking that it was a clever and creative idea. Those are my thoughts and opinion, and I am allowed to have them. You may not think that it was clever or creative, and I can't stop you from thinking that. But don't you dare tell me that I'm wrong in my own opinion.

Well, in that case you can't really tell artist it IS creative. It's their right to have the opinion it wasn't creative. Same as it is yours to think it was creative.

It's like looking at myself in the mirror... but i'm happy i've come as far as recognizing my low self esteem n all the things that come with it and i'm working on it...

Hmm... you are being bashful.

I hate
1. How my brain is always going to fast for me to catch up.
2. My nightmares.
3. The fact that I am a failure.
4. My height.
5. My weight.
6. My scars.
7. My illnesses.
8. How pathetic I am.
9. That I am a failure.
10. That I have so much to hate.

I Like
1. How my brain aids in me understanding science.
2. My ability to write fiction.
3. My eyes.
4. My twisted sense of humor.
5. That I am alive.
6. That I am an amazing care-giver.
7. My odd sense of style.
8. My ridiculous drawing style.
9. My voice.
10. My hair.

I wonder how you reconcile all of those good things with "the fact that you are a failure". How do you reconcile them in your mind? It does not compute. You understand science, write fiction, are alive, etc. etc. can draw (I wish I could draw). Seems like there are a lot of things that make you a success, or, at least, a success in the making.

I am a shy person but in this case it's not bashfulness. It was something that was stumbled upon.

Creative people do not necessarily belabor their creations - they might stumble upon them. Yet, they still take credit, and you do not. That is puzzling.

I think the only thing I really like about myself is my writing and drawing abilities. It's the only area where I'm borderline arrogant. I have low self esteem in every other way but I've always been confident in my abilities to draw and write.

I hate my jealousy.