Fighting myself to get things done

I have 14 days to finish a project. My low self-esteem has had a bad effect on my abilities to get it done but I need to get it done for survival. I avoid things, nit-pick my work, cry, get lost, become anxious, pace, hit myself, and just let myself get swallowed up in my self-loathing. For the next 14 days I am going to use this thread to counter those feelings and get it done.

Thanks.

I had a hard time getting started this morning. All my critics were in my head telling me I can't do anything right. Pushed through the noises and found some momentum. Made good progress and did some nice work in the afternoon. Good for me. I need to recognize that with my high anxiety levels I need to be more watchful and patient with myself. This afternoon I remembered that I have done good work in the past, did some today, and will do some more tomorrow.

Hi Cloudy,Good for you! I'm glad you recognize
the critics are NOT YOU!If you need more info on
that aspect,don't hesitate to message me.
Deepest Respect,
BLUEDOVE.

Thanks Bluedove. Today was better. Made progress and fewer criticisms running through my head.

A lot of activity little that was productive. I need to be more focused. I need to break down my tasks into parts and finish each part before starting on the next.

Feeling a little less stressed but lost some focus. Will start fresh again tomorrow.