[She]

I am starting to think I will be using all the forums! Thank god you guys are here. This I think is related to low self esteem. Maybe not. I am not sure. OK I live in my RV and sometimes I wash my hair at work. Floor was wet went to get paper towels . Co worker needed to use the bathroom ,warned him of wet floor. Told the assist. manager too. Guy was in long time . I was talking to assist manager and forgot about the floor. New co worker walks in the bathroom and mentions wet floor. I already from that moment had guilt. I don't know where this comes from. Stupid little thing and I get guilt and yes fear that I did something terrible wrong. I react a lot like this. And as I talk yes I can see my foster father making me feel guilty over things. Always from foster father. The image of him will never go away.

[lynn P.]

((She)) - bad experiences can really carry on through a whole life, if we don't find a way to work through the pain and memories. I'm sorry these guilt feeling seep into present life. Are you in therapy?

[She]

No Its very expensive. I have no health insurance. I was thinking about online therapy but I am not sure where to go on that. No wonder I am a mess.
BTW Bella is very very cute!

[JadeAmethyst]

Dear She
When I first came here, and still even now, it was a relief and scary at the same time. So, I just started reading different forums. For me it was just a comfort to know I wasn't alone anymore.

Please be well, and welcome to PC. This is a safe and comforting place, take your time.
You will find lots of people to help out, just ask.

warm regards
Jade

[She]

Originally Posted by JadeAmethyst

Dear She
When I first came here, and still even now, it was a relief and scary at the same time. So, I just started reading different forums. For me it was just a comfort to know I wasn't alone anymore.

Please be well, and welcome to PC. This is a safe and comforting place, take your time.
You will find lots of people to help out, just ask.

warm regards
Jade

Thank you Jade I think I will do just that.

[avlady]

Welcome She!!

[hamster-bamster]

Those images of people who used to make us feel guilty are incredibly hard to get rid of, but since you realize what is happening, you will, hopefully, one day get rid of the image of your foster father. My T says that the first step is to realize that it is not your own judgment. Separating yourself from that image is the first step. Realizing that the image of the foster father is NOT you. It is not your voice speaking.

I do not know what the further steps would be - I am at the same stage you are at.