[winterglen]

I haven't been on in a few weeks. Things are going somewhat better. I'm in a better state of mind.

The problem is I'm not keeping up with some of my responsibilities.

I was late to an appointment to my therapist because I overslept.

I need to clean my apartment.

I need to get started on my final project and I have no idea what I want to do it on.

I need to be farther along on my creating a website for another class. So far I only have one page and one table -- I need to have more design, pictures, links, etc, and I don't know how I'll ever learn to make those.

I need to stop being so lazy and greedy and learn to get into a habit of working harder and creating better ideas so that I can someday be employable and so I can do something with my life besides sitting on my *** in front of the TV.

I need to start being a contributing and productive person because if I don't I'll end up homeless or a pariah.

If I were a good person, I would be able to keep up with everything. But instead I'm just dead weight insisting that society drags me along with them because I'm a terrible loser.

[Jan1212]

I've been as well... I have a dry-erase board on the hallway I pass by everyday with a list of things-to-do. I can';t do everything in one day, it'll take days or weeks. I feel working in a clean environment helps. I try not to think too much before I jump into my chores. Still working on it

[anneo59]

Hi winterglen and Jan1212, know what you mean, I have times like this, myself. Sometimes I will just content myself on days I can check off one or two things on the list. Of course, being BP, there are other days that are the opposite. Normally for the last few years have been tending toward the depressive, tho I wear a brave face, but have been rapid cycling lately and trying to keep that under better control. Then things get really crazy as far as getting stuff done. Be well, all!