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I have always taken the blame if there is any way it could have been me who "did it" or caused it, or made the mistake...
![]() I was told by my mother all my life how stupid I was, what a mistake I was, how I was clumsy and would never amount to anything.I was told by my father that if I didn't do what he wanted, I would be left to explain his death to my family because it would be my fault he killed himself. ![]() I am 44 years old and I still find ways to take the blame when it isn't mine to take. I find ways to convince myself I am the one who messed up whatever may be messed up.Sometimes I even believe it must have been me somehow. I don't want to be this way but I don't know how not to. It is driving my boyfriend crazy and I can't say I blame him for getting aggravated with me. He doesn't like to see me " beat myself up:" over something i didn't control. It sounds silly that I do this doesn't it? ![]() Anyway.. sorry for not being such a Sunybear... ![]() |
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Suny...Hi, and welcome to PC...
I can totally identify with you! It is good, though, that you recognize that you have this tendency, and also it sounds like you have a supportive boyfriend. Patty |
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Hi Sunny -- Welcome to PC.
![]() And brava for stepping out and stating what's on your mind. I totally and completely relate to what you are saying. I grew up in an era when women were expected to be the peacemakers and keep the peace -- in a family, at work, everywhere. If that meant eating how I really felt, that was too bad. It is still hard for me, and my social conditioning is such that I am pretty careful about where I draw the line in the sand. In another group, there was a post from a member who had an argument about what a decorative item in the home. Now, that's something I wouldn't fight about. The males I've been with usually didn't care, so if he had a request, I'm not drawing a line in the sand there. I'm going to save arguing for something that really matters to me. I think it's good that you are bringing this emotional dynamic into consciousness. I think it will help you to make choices that you find more satisfying.
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I relate.
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