[adultnecropuma]

Finally I have something here. Possibly a career if I can make it work. I'm just tripping really hard on how it's going to go. Mainly how i'm going to manage the relationships at work. I have a lot of trouble spending a lot of time with just about anyone.
I break too much contact, if anyone can understand that. Like an engagement will start up then I quickly pull out and withdraw. It's like i'm afraid to really get to know anyone.
What has happened in the past that I am scared might emerge again is i'll work (that's no problem), but won't acknowledge anyone. It's like I use whatever i'm doing at hand as a means of not being able to talk with someone while i'm doing it. Then I come off like an imbecile or slave with no personality.
I know worrying on it is negative thinking so I should probably stop and just try to expect it to be a good thing. I've just made a habit out've negative thinking and am looking for ways to change all of my thoughts back to a more positive light.

[notallwhowander]

Hey worrier!
it makes a lot of sense to feel anxious about something new - and even more, something GOOD - working out. You already know to try to think positively about the whole thing, relationship aspects and all, but what kind of thinking patterns are you working with? Hypothetical scenarios? Remember that you're only responsible for your part of the interaction; try not to spend too much energy considering what other people think of your actions/words/behavior for the brief time (in the span of your life) that they've been with you. Instead, see if you can find any genuine connections with your new coworkers; those are always the easiest, least stressful, and most honest!

[Little Lulu]

The best scenario is that the job you have been hired to do will match your personality style and it will be a good fit. If not, maybe you will be interested enough in the type of work you are doing to make the best of it. It is a strength to recognize where your weaknesses lie ... hoping it goes well for you.

[adultnecropuma]

Thanks, I don't know how to best explain it. I had to drive 30 miles to my employer today. 30 miles of interstates and freeways. I got lost. Even though I wrote down detailed directions. It's like I panic on the road like I'm not focused. I was reading my directions on where to go while I was missing where I should have went.
I really don't know whatsup with me. It's my first time getting out of my home and driving through the city in like 3 months so maybe it's just a phase.
It's bad though. I literally drove past my house two times before I realized I was on the right street....
I don't get out much, and from the direction I was coming from but damn you know.