[SeekerOfLife]

I work in home health, usually with the elderly, and sometimes with children. I have been caring for a special needs child. His parents have to work all day today. After giving me their updates and telling me I did not have to sit here all day (I can take the child out to the.....park, etc, they said they trusted me to do whatever I needed to do to keep the child and I occupied and happy. Well, this slammed my emotions. If the situation were reversed I would want the aide to STAY HOME with my child. I am not sure why but I feel overwhelming guilty that they trust me. Well, yes, they can trust me. But hearing those words has very much triggered me. I cannot understand why. My anxiety has gone into high gear.

[Perna]

Trust you with what? How is "where" you are with the child important?

[SeekerOfLife]

Home is usually the safest place to be.

[Frankbtl]

Hi seekersinking, if you've been in home health quite a time (which you have haven't you?) you probably have an "heightened" (?), more acute (?) sense of how big a responsibility it is to "care for" someone, and how big a thing is to be trusted to do that.
And maybe as well, how hard it can be for some people close to the people you "care for" to give their complete trust to someone?
So maybe, it could have thrown you with them coming out with that, particularly if your self-esteem isn't that good?
But the flip side of that is they did trust you, like you said of course they can trust you, but that is a big thing and you should be really pleased with yourself that you've inspired that confidence from them. Really pleased!! OH, and proud of yourself too!!
Clearly something in your mannerisms, the way you communicated, the way you knew what you were talking about.............made them feel comfortable with you. AND made them trust you!! Full marks to you, hey!! Take a bow!!
So, one good day, yes??!!
Alison

[SeekerOfLife]

Thanks Alison. You have given me a bit of courage to go on.