Defining myself 2

Fay's post below had me thinking...i didnt answer her right away...i was going to...but she actually had me at a loss for words.....defining myself....hmm this will take some time....i didnt post it in her thread because i was afraid thats what she didnt want....and i didnt want anyone thinking i was hijacking her thread...so peace on Fay....and let me give it a go....(by the way...its pretty vunerable to write this...so if you have comments...please be nice thank you)

InACorner
A cutter
A daughter
A lover
A passionate
creative
disaster
An abandoned baby
An abused child
molested teen
A woman
whose
seen
the shimmering stars
at 4 am
waiting
to be let inside
A woman
who felt
icy snowflakes
on bare shoulders
to find shelter
A little girl
whose played mommy
played judge
counciler
lawyer
and best friend
to the two people
who needed to play
grown up for her
her parents
A ghost
who haunts
the lives of others
A memory
faded
with age
A little girl
whose only dream
is to read
forever
In
A
Corner

(((((((((((((((((((inny)))))))))))))))))))))

I would like to add something to that if I may be so bold -

Someone who puts her own issues aside to help another
In a word, a FRIEND



xoxox
J

Inny, i'm glad you posted this. i started that thread to get others to think about it and perhaps post there......... good for you!

Your post is very creative, Inny. Brava!

You can change some of the things about yourself or add things like hobbies, successes etc.
I read a book called Self-esteem by Matthew McKay, Ph.D. and Patrick Fanning. The book had me describe myself using some different chategories which were: Physical appearance, social, personality, how others see me, performance at school/work, home responsibilities, mental functioning and sexuality. I was supposed to talk about the negatives and positives. Then proof read the negatives for accuracy, exageration, non-specificity and the other cognitive thinking patterns that we depressed people tend to do.

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I am very talkative except around authority figures. I have good eye contact except with family and authority figures. I am a good listener and have a lot of empathy for others. I struggle with a tendency to answer questions at work with "I think" because it lowers my fear of confrontation. I am comfortable saying, " No" when I need to which helps me not to resent others. I struggle with asking others for favors because I don't want to annoy anyone. I am currently seeking a balance between my need for others and mt need to be independent. When I depend on others, I fear that they will let me down. I have made a commitment to encourage others as I go about living my life.
I am a very responsible person who can be silly at times. I love to be silly! I can become irritable or cry when I compare myself to others. When someone corrects me, I get defensive and want to find a better way to respond.
Others see me as an intelligent and hard worker who beats herself up. When I am stressed or feel anxious, I cry.
At work and school, I have nearly perfect attendance. I am a good researcher and writer. I have a very good reading comprehension. I cry frequently at school because my classes make me think of childhood. While at work, I struggle to balance my perfectionistic tendencies and efficeincy. I complain at work about the lack of hours whic probably annoys my boss.
I am good at budgetting my money but I have been taking money out of savings a lot lately. I tend to fall behind on my dishes and other cleaning projects. I am kind of lazy and want to enjoy myself rahter than work when I am at home.
I enjoy reading mysteries and Christian books. I love to draw nature scenes, portraits and psychological pictures. I enjoy photographing nature scenes.

Thank you for this chance to get to know you better, Hopefull. I think this is brave. I am working in my private journal on why I am reluctant to do such an enumeration in public.