[lenjan]

What little I had has been shredded in the past week. Then I just got nuked by my boss about 20 minutes ago, and now I *REALLY* don't have any.

I have been at this job not quite a year and I think overall I've done pretty well. I've never missed a deadline -- come close, but always pulled through. Tonight I got assaulted for not being "resourceful." I don't think it's fair. I turn up my own story ideas all the time. But I also do what I'm told. I got told earlier in the afternoon to call two specific people. I did. One of them didn't call me back. It was suggested that I call someone at a school that offers a program in question. I did. I got an answering machine. I left a message.

The problem seems to be that I don't go beyond what I'm told. So when 6:00 rolled around and I hadn't heard from anyone I'd left messages for, it was my fault for not calling OTHER people.

My deadline really isn't until 10 or so. It's 7:05 right now. I left everybody and their brother my home phone number. i don't know what else I could have done.

Everything that could go wrong, went wrong last week. Not a bit of it was my fault (plenty of people said so). But I got blamed for it anyway.

My mental health has gone to hell over the past month and my boss has become less and less understanding about it. I don't know what to do. I usually have tons of confidence in my ability to do what I do, but that's disappeared and I don't know where to go or what to do next.

[Fuzzybear]

I'm sorry Candy, and I wish I could help. Growling quietly at the %#@&#! of life and you're always welcome in my cave
(((((((((((((((( Candy )))))))))))))))

[Rapunzel]

Candy, my job was just like that last week. My boss said to focus here and don't worry too much about this. So I did. Then I was in trouble for not doing the other thing, which I had been told was not the priority. It's frustrating. I wanted to hide under my desk. I told myself that it was all my fault and I can't do anything right. Basically, I was overwhelmed, especially since a project for school was also not going well at the same time. You do what you can, and learn from the interaction. Next time I bet you will try calling more people, since now you know that is the expectation.

You know what? It's getting to be hibernation season. Let's all hide out in Fuzzy's cave for a while. Can you get a little time off for a vacation?

You know that we always love you for who you are, no matter what, right?

TC,
Rap

[lenjan]

((((((((Fuzzy))))))) ((((((((((Rap)))))))) thank you.

I haven't been able to shake this. I feel like I should start looking for another profession, much less another job. But there's nothing else I'm any good at.

Hibernation season is definitely here, it hasn't gotten out of the mid-40s today. A few months in Fuzzy's cave works for me!

Candy