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Oct 31, 2007, 09:50 AM
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Today is one off those days... i started out o.k.... but i had my music and my sketch pad... if i dont have these i start thinking... witch by the way is a bad thing... see my mom started last night with her visiusenesss... she called me a worthless peace of %#@&#!, who's waisting her time on art that will never amount to anything... i know i shouldn't let it get to me... i'm a idiot for letting it... but it has... and the more i think the worse it is... i don't wana have a emo day... my boyfriend doesn't like that... and if i have a emo day then i'll end up hurting myself... stupid i know... my teacher want let me draw or lisson to my music so the thoughts are raceing through my head... sometimes i don't think its worth it... you know living... like every one would be better without me... i can't tell my boyfriend this because i'll get emotional... who wants a emotional girlfriend right!?... it all sound stupid and pointless.... but i hate this feeling... i just end up having a panic attack... and i'm at school so that would be bad... my grades are sliping... i'm just a idiot... if they keep sliping then i loose going to the arts accadomy... witch is one of the most important thing to me... next to my boyfriend... i know i sound so stupid... i'm a %#@&#! idiot!!!
Love, Lastresort
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Oct 31, 2007, 04:37 PM
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I get what you are going through with your mom... when the people we love most don't believe in us it kills us and the fact that you have trouble letting it go means you do love her.
As for your boyfriend, if he isn't okay with you being an "emotional girlfriend" when you need to be he is not good enough for you. You need someone who is supportive of you and will listen when you are troubled. Most of all, you are not an idiot, you do not sound like an idiot, you are just going through a tough time. Most importantly, you can't let those grades slip. You need to get some kind of tutoring or something because you are right... art accademies don't just go on talent, they want a well-rounded student. Most importantly DO NOT allow your boyfriend to be the "most important thing". He can rank up there, but school must be your #1 priority. If art and music are what you want to be a part of when you grow up, your education has to be your main focus. Maybe this sounds cruel and you think I don't understand but I have been right in your shoes. I made a lot of the mistakes that it looks like you might be heading towards and ittook me years to get past them. Be brave. Hugs, LizardL8y |
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Oct 31, 2007, 04:49 PM
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(((((((( lastresort ))))))))
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Oct 31, 2007, 07:30 PM
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I'm sorry for what you are feeling
 ((((Hugs)))) I know that often what one or two ppl say feels like it's the whole world, but you know it isn't.Do what you need to do for yourself to get into that art academy! There are plenty of famous and / or successful ppl whose moms had it all wrong!
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