Struggling with External Self-Image and Insecurities

Hi everyone. I'm a 90% self-healed trauma survivor, but still have another 10% to go, which lies in the external self-image and insecurities. I've been struggling with my self-image for years, since I was very young. It's one of the hardest things to heal from, as I see myself entirely different than what the world sees me as. I love myself internally, and have a badass personality to match. But, I need to learn to love myself all the way around, including the external parts, but I want to love what I see when I look in the mirror. I just want to accept myself as is, regardless of everything. I have all types of things that can help me see otherwise, but I just never do. I'm trying not to downgrade myself, as negative self talk is NEVER good. I'm hoping to eventually change myself in a much more positive way, and start believing otherwise. For all of you who struggle with these issues, trust me, I understand your pain. It's sad how we waste half of our time and lives worrying about things that really shouldn't matter. But, is what it is. Only we can change ourselves. Best wishes for all that are going through this.