shattered

my self esteem is shattered. its in tiny little pieces on the floor. put there by insecurities, self hatred, lonliness....I cant get any friends because i have no ability to look someone in the eye. I cant feel good about myself because everything about myself makes me sick. I hate my hair, my eyes, my face, my height, my clothing, my personality. Its all disgusting to me. Id give anything to feel comfortable in my skin just once!! I'd pay someone as much many as i have to have them make me feel good about myself just once. I have noone. noone to comfort me, noone to nuture me, noone to show me affection. I dont have that unconditional love i had at home ( im at college) I have made two friends who i have become intensely attached to and they dont feel the same way about me. It's sick. I just need one person who cares just alittle bit about me. am i asking for too much?

Sarah honey,
If it is any consolation, I care about you.
*cuddles you*

Always remember:
you are strong
you are capable
you are competent
you are intelligent
you are caring
you are loving
you are smart
you are beautiful
you are a good person!!!!

If you ever need me, I am just a PM away. I mean that.

(((sarahxxkristine)))) pick up the pieces of your self esteem if you can
know we care here at pc
can you call your parents more
I know its so hard to be at college?
is this your first year?
My daughter still calls me at least 3xs a day and shes 3rd year
has friends and a boyfriend.......
If you are a first year give it some time
college takes awhile to get use to
good luck to you
Muffy

Hi Sarah!!

You are tremendous & precious to all!!!
You are Loved
and an important member of our family!
Only You have
the unique ideas
special talents
the clever creativeness
& your unique point of view.

You are one of a kind Sarah, & you are truly loved.
Holmes

Who might this person be??? >>>>>> YOU

thank you guys. i guess im just frustrated with my lonliness. i am able to go home every weekend starting on friday....i guess its just the 4.5 days i have to spend alone. Sarah gets to see her Therapist on saturday so thats gives me a sense of relief. We'll see.

What shattered you?

change of enviornment....having to make new friends...living away from home....

Like you had to re-adjust, and it's hard to fit together the pieces, find how they connect to yourself and others?

yeah i mean that totally make sense sorrel i jsut need help doing so. im really hard headed and stubborn...i quit counseling just because i felt like it...and people were forcing me to goo and saying i needed to so i proved them wrong by not going anymore.

Dear Sarah,

Please know, in order to be loved by others, it helps to love yourself. Others, will sense your self disdain and shy away, particularly the empathetic ones. The very ones, you want in your life. They will sense, what you feel on an emotional level. It will clash, with what they perceive on a cognitive level. Instead of synergy, there will be conflict.

You have gleaming dark eyes, and lustrous black hair. You sport a short haircut, that may only be worn by the most beautiful of women, like yourself. Your warm smile exudes confidence. You are an incredibly lovable, petite young woman.

No doubt, there are young men, as well as young women, who would like to know you, to have the pleasure of your company, as well as the pleasure of your friendship. They are your classmates, you schoolmates, and visitors to your campus. I am sure, many recognize you. They don’t know who you are. They only know, they would like to meet you.

However, they are not able to connect with you. They need the welcome of your warm eyes. They need, your permission to approach you.

Please, look into their eyes,

Larry