[WePow]

Do you guys ever just get so exhausted of abuse in life - one form or another year after year and no matter how hard you try to put it behind you there it is again in some form?

What do you do when you have tried and tried to make it and you feel you are just out of steam?

[WePow]

Need to rephrase this question: Just need ideas on what you do to pick up your spirits and give yourself the encouragement you need? I know there is some fun to be had in life! :-) Want to find it.

I know what I say is controversial. Nonetheless, I have spent a lot of time practicing forgiveness. My abuse was not sexual. So perhaps I have no right to speak.

Even so, the process of forgiving has reduced the anger, bitterness and resentment I have lived with for decades. I still can get pretty worked up. I will always be dysfunctional. I too, however, will never stop trying to prevent another from owning any part of my life.

[sabby]

(((((((((( powers )))))))))))

I think I understand where you are coming from. I did not suffer from an abuse such as yourself and many others here. But, there was abuse none the less.

I think what TheByzantine said is very true....forgiveness is a huge thing in letting go of the anger and pain, or at least a large part of it. Sometimes the forgiveness comes to those who have abused us, sometimes the forgiveness comes with ourselves as well. In my situation, when I began to forgive myself, I found it much easier down the road to forgive my abusers. It doesn't mean I forget....it doesn't mean that I would run up to them and hug them by any stretch of the imagination, but I just couldn't live with all that anger and hatred anymore...it was just consuming me and would have been the end of me for sure.

I guess to me, the forgiveness was a gift I gave to myself. It really didn't have a thing to do with my abusers, it was strictly about me...and dang it, it was about time!!!!!

Oh, and it begins on a small scale.....little things to be forgiven for....then worked up to the bigger things as I got more confident and able to forgive. It took time, but it was well worth every second of it. I have been able to move on.....to find the enjoyment in life that we all deserve and crave.


sabby

[amante]

wpowers,

I wrote a letter to Oprah, about my life struggles and what I'd endured. I never sent it, but wrote it. Whenever I feel low, and feel abused in life, I reread my letter and it brings me inspiration that I am a survivor of it all. You can read my letter it's under Depression Stories thread, under My Letter to Oprah, coming to America.

[amante]

wpowers,

Do you have children, neices or nephews? I channel lots of positive energy into loving them and bring them joy and happiness from the heart.

[WePow]

I have no children. I have neices but can not see them as they are in another state. But I do send them lots of love. :-)

[Hunny]

WePow safe

I am not able to come into this forum too often but saw you here.

You are an amazing person WP! It always amazes me when I meet a perfectly wonderful person who happened to be an abused person. Your very life is an incredible 'ode' to the masterfulness of you and where you obtained your strength from.

You deserve fun and to have your spirits lifted and to be encouraged! Yes, you do!

By your reaching out to others you have found the 'well of joy' that there is available to you on this planet! oh, that and nature.

I will always remember your kindnesses and caring WP. You are worth a million trillion stars and planets made of gold and yes, it's great to reach out and help those nieces and nephews and you probably do in your own way but your asset is yourself and all of who you are! Let it be known that WP is full value for who she is and lookout world because she has only just begun! There is so much to look forward to.

Lots of Love
Hunny


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Originally Posted by WePow

Need to rephrase this question: Just need ideas on what you do to pick up your spirits and give yourself the encouragement you need? I know there is some fun to be had in life! :-) Want to find it.

[WePow]

(((((((( Hunny ))))))))) thank you so much. But my survival is actually a tribute to all the most wonderful people I have had throughout my life who did listen and cared. Many times I was mad at them because I thought they did not care because they could not rescue me from whatever was going on. The truth though was that they could never do that. It was not the way life worked. But that did not mean they were not there with me. And they are the reason I am here. And that includes you, Hunny!

Love you!
WP

[amante]

How are you feeling WPow? Just thinking about you and thinking what a great response Hunny posted to you.

[perpetuallysad]

WP, I just wanted to give you a hug. I certainly don't have a good answer, I wish I did. You have been kind to me, so I wanted to be kind back.

[WePow]

Things are going along for me.... healing. I am on short term disability right now for this week and T will re-evaluate me. I am going through processing the trauma and merging memories with positive memories so it will take away the negative charges. I think I pushed myself too much last night because I was going into areas I am not yet strong enough to face. That made me have anxiety for a while.

We will see T today and I am glad. Wish this would hurry up and process. He said I was working hard to get healed up. This is just so hard.