TRIGGER!!! I told my mom

So it is out there. I told my mom that I was raped. I still can't believe I can say that word. And I told her in front of 2 cops!

It all started when my T had me call the hotline because I was SU and the hotline called the cops. My mom was upset that I didn't talk to her, which is true. She told me that I needed to let her know what was going on and that I talk more to my friends than I do her. That they know more about what is going on in my life. She said that she has been through tough times too and that she understands what I am going through. That is when I told her. I straight up asked her if she had "ever been raped over and over and over again by her husband." I told her that she would never understand that, that is why I can't talk to her. I have 2 friends that know about this, and they have both been through it. It is a good thing the cops were here, because I would have bolted for the door and left.

Now that she knows, it seems a weight has been lifted off of me. I am REALLY ready to talk about it with my T. I said the word and I survived. I have said it since then and survived. It is just a word. A tragic thing that happened to me. Something that I didn't deserve, that I didn't ask for, that I didn't allow. I was raped by a person who loved me. I AM A SURVIVOR!

You go girlfriend! You are strong! I hope the justice system does not let this one fall through the cracks.

((((buttrfli))))

Yes, you are a survivor and I am so proud of you. Thank you for sharing. Know we are here for you. We care. Sending you gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Always.

dps

Good Job!!!!

(((((((buttrfi))))))) Great job!!!!! I'm so happy for you. You are awesome and soooo brave!!!!!!! When do you get to talk to your T again?

Very good work!!!!

VERY VERY good work!! YES! "I AM A SURVIVOR! " You said it!

You're very brave for telling and standing up to this. You are a survivor and this will empower you. Hoping for strength and clarity

Excellent!

Nucking: unfortunately he has already gotten away with it. I didn't know there was such thing as wife rape until after I had left him. There is no evidence, or any way to prosecute him, no matter how much I want him to pay for it. He will pay come judgement day.

Clay: I got to see one of my Ts on Friday before I went out of town. I will see the others this week. They have all been very supportive during the last few weeks during my hospitalization. I am ready to get back on schedule with them and get back to working on my issues.