Trigger: Not a good nite

I am sorry but please do not read this if you might get triggered. I do not want to cause anyone any harm. I am just out of it today. Last nite I was at the where I take a couple of nite classes. The class ended at and most everyone got out before I did....I went to the men's room and shortly after that two guys came in and assualted me.....again. This time I did hit one of them but they ripped my shirt...and took my glasses and ripped them apart. They also did things I won't write on here. I have been stalked by this group for four years now.....I am just now getting back to the place where I thought I could go out and about now.....this is the only time there has been physical contact since the orginal attack. I am 44, I should beable to take care of myself! I tried. Today I feel like I am walking around in a cloud. My wife is very supportive so I am thankful for that. I just feel so stupid. I did not report it at the college...or the police because nothing can ever be done. I have tried that route. I don't really expect anyone to respond to this I just needed to get it out of me for now. I hope this has not bothered one. PLease forgive me if it has.

Chalkdust

in a way its necessary defense to stay in that cloud as long as your mind needs that distance from thr real world
as long as you don't have to drive or anything dangerous
and it sounds like your wife has respect for your reaction and the distance but is still in contact with you and you with her.
And your in safe contact here. Thank the powers that be and your own resourses for survival, again.
Tend to yourself knowing we are heartbroken on your behalf but not broken by hearing your accounting here.
With respect for your dignity and courage,
Kathy

Chalkdust,

Nothing I can say can take away your pain. I am sorry that this happened to you. if you need to let it all out just go for it!

(((((((((((((((chalkdust)))))))))))))))

Melissa

I hope you do report this to the college again. Hold the college responsible for not providing adequate security. Others are at risk, too. Get the word out. Write flyers and post them all over the campus stating there has been assaults occurring in the restrooms, etc. Write chalk message on the cement in front of all restrooms warning of possible assault in these UNSAFE college restrooms. Write emails. Contact city police.