we asked if this was the right place to put this and were told it was ok. we added the trigger icon just as a precaution although no details are used.we are not quite ready to go into details yet today but wanted to at least open the topic by saying we have been abused by several mental health professionals,all emotionally/mentally,no sex or physical contact which may have been easier to overcome we think anyway for us. the most recent is still ongoing and we are trying very hard to get away bit it isnt as simple as just that. we(we are DID and so this complicates it a bit more) have been seeing this counselor for close to 4 years now and the enmeshment has a stranglehold on us all. when we are feeling a bit safer/more stable were going to write a very detailed account unless anyone feels they migh be offended or bothered by it? we just really need a place to be able to share our heartache and maybe know that someone hears us. anyway if this has happened to anyone please,feel free to add your stories it would really be helpful to know we arent alone because we feel incredibly alone. thanks for listening

(((((Trinity Dancer)))))-yes, when i was 15, just after my estranged father tried to rape me the night before my brother's wedding. My brother walked in just in time.

When I told everyone about it--they "of course" decided i needed to see a shrink even though my brother saw it..denies it to this day---I was "crazy" I needed to see a Doctor.

I began therapy at age 15 and am still in therapy.

The frist therapist I saw was at my school. He had me come to his 96th and central park office for visits-"for free"--and then he, who had daughters my age; sexually assaulted me on many occasions. I won't go into it further.

It is a scar that will be with me, just as all the others are tattoed on me for life.

No, you are not alone !---(((Trinity Dancer)))-theo

(((((theo)))
we are so very sorry this happened to you, its is a most horrible and traumatizing thing and reading it did bring back one memory we forgot of sexual assault by a psychiatrist but we were not seeing him professionally he was our landlord in the last place we lived in NY. im glad you were able to share this here it was very brave of you and helped us know we arent alone thank you so much for helping

[lynn P.]

((((Trinity Dancer)))) - you/your very brave for revealing this and I'm sorry this is happening to you. I hope this freedom to speak out, will also give you strength to move on from this counselor. It's sad to think the people who have the most trust, don't value it.

((Theo)) - thank you for sharing your painful stories. I feel so mad people do these horrible acts. I had 2 close calls - one with my BIL and once with my BF's boss - even though thank God I got away, it still affected me. So I can't imagine the pain of a full blown assault. But you're both survivors, not victims anymore.

thank you ((((lynn))) we always thought nobody would believe us because of our extensive history and things that are wrong with us but the more we reveal the more we are confirmed that what shes doing to us is abusive. the depths of pain cant even be measured for this. had an extremely traumatic experience yesterday and so are still feeling overly exposed today.

[Sannah]

I'll be ready to read whatever you want to share TD...........

we want to thank everyone who has responded with words of encouragement so far. just to even try and formukate thoughts around whats happened and is still happening causes pain beyond recognition almost hard to breathe we have nobody now nobody at all to listen or care to help us really heal

Have you thought about reporting her to the state board of psychiatry?

thanks for being so patient with us. we will give just a little background as a starting place. we have nobody to report her to. her counseling falls under the heading of "pastoral or life skills" and so has no governing body to oversee her actions. a few of her other empolyees are licensed by their own decision but because to do pastoral you dont need a license,she does have extensive amounts of training and is quite knowledgeable in her areas of expertise that much we will give her. our abuse history involves CSA,emotional,physical,medical torture and SRA(satanic ritual abuse). this poses a great problem since nobody else anywhere ever has been able to address all of our collective problems. she has the skill and ability to do this,unfortunately its gotten progressively more abusive as time has gone on. we want to tell the story in as much detail as possible but will have to do it slowly as we are already in such severe distress and need to be careful. thanks for reading this if you did

[Sannah]

TD, since this has happened with many counselors I was wondering if you are projecting? I have seen it with my own eyes and have had people project their experiences onto me. This projection is quite powerful. When people have projected their experience onto me it was so off base and had absolutely nothing to do with me and who I was.

I have also seen it on here, where a person was/is so still living in the past that they would not allow any of the present to seep into them. It seemed that they just did not trust anyone in the present so even when the other person would explain something to them they would still continue to only hear the past. It was like the past was all that they trusted and the past continued to swirl around and around inside them. It so colored their present and they could not escape. But now this person here is examining this and they are letting in some of the present so that they can be released from the past eventually.

sannah thank you for the insight but we can firmly and definitively say "no" to the projecting. maybe a few years ago but we are more than willing and open to hear constructive and helpful suggestions and have actually made progress moving out of the past. we made a complete and total break from one of our primary CSAers and have stayed firm on it for close to 2 years now despite the fact that our cores 2 oldest live with them(her gparents) and have written her off. there have been a lot of positive changes but we now constantly live under threats of being terminated if we "dont shape up or you will ship out". she threatens to withold services from us if we dont "behave",once when she was giving us a ride home from a group and we had been severely triggered by something she ordered us to do and we reacted badly she asked us why we didnt allow the person in group next to us to link arms and pray with us? we said becuase we didnt want to be touched at that moment and here is literally the response she screamed at us-I DONT F*ING CARE!!!!!! CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW POOR(the other persons name)MUST HAVE FELT SO REJECTED???? umm.....wtf???? please tell me if thats proper protocol in helping someone? im sorry if we sound angry but just recalling that makes us feel like garbage again

[sharon123]

This is abuse (as i believe you know)....can you talk to somebody else (professional)?

our cores sister is trying to help find us someone new but so far all she is able to come up with are males and we are terrified of them so its a waiting game right now. we have an appt in about 45 mins so we will see where that leads,not feeling very hopeful.

[Sannah]

I see now, this is very abusive!!!

she has no supervisor cause she *is* the supervisor. just dont know where to turn to try and stop her from hurting anyone else. such a complicated mess

[WePow]

((((((((TD))))))))))) Sending big hugs to you.

[Sannah]

There has to be someone over her. Is this a governmental or a religious foundation?

its her own private ministry and were not sure what heading it falls under but it may be religious because i am pretty sure i heard her say theyre non-profit and its run on contributions so no set fees or insurances. if youd like we could send you the link to her website but dont know if it would tell you anything. it is just feeling like a hopeless situation right now

[Sannah]

She is accountable to her donors I'm sure. Yes, please send the website.

we sent it just now

[Sannah]

Just wanted everyone else to know that on the website there is a list of Board of Directors. Wouldn't this founder and director be responsible to them?

I would still talk to the board of psychiatry for the State of Kentucky and find out if there is help for you there. I would also call the city or county attorney who has jurisdiction over the organization and see if this person is guilty of a crime. I also wonder who pays for this? If the organization is supported by federal or state funds, there should be an investigation. I already have suggested you contact your congressional delegation.

One thing is troublesome. Why are you still there accepting this abuse?

we arent in kentucky we are in florida. and i think the only answer that we can give for remaining is we dont have anyone else but were very much considering just stopiing and safely isolating for a time because surely that cant be any more harmful than whats going on now.

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Originally Posted by TheByzantine

I would still talk to the board of psychiatry for the State of Kentucky and find out if there is help for you there. I would also call the city or county attorney who has jurisdiction over the organization and see if this person is guilty of a crime. I also wonder who pays for this? If the organization is supported by federal or state funds, there should be an investigation. I already have suggested you contact your congressional delegation.

One thing is troublesome. Why are you still there accepting this abuse?

I highly Agree!

Your'e there because of Abuse! TO HELP CURE YOU - Not to learn to KEEP Accepting Abuse!!! You Are Not To Continue Being Abused!!!