as a result of abuse

I get scared a lot. Sometimes it can go for a very long time without my irratinal fear, and then boom it't there. I am afraid, did I say the right thing? Did I do something that was ultimately going to make me more unsafe, get hurt? Am I not seeing the danger coming? Seems like in the past few days I am on here a lot because I am ill. Being ill and having this issue at the same time makes for an interesting combo.

I just feel so very vulnerable. I hate it. And then misunderstandings happen. I am fragile. Holy cow, I am a walking drug store with pian meds and muscle relaxants on to of my normal meds.

If I am honest and say how I feel about some things here does that put me in danger? I don't want to be in emotional danger. Or physcial for what that is worth.

I am always confused when I am ill. Yes Sky, I hear you telling me to find another word to replace always as it is self-fufilling. Many times when I am ill I feel confused because it reminds me of how unsafe I was as a young child. Better? Okay, so is my point made? I am so fragile right now.

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But it's all over now!

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I can relate to much of what you write. Sucks to feel fragile, fearful, and in physical pain at the same time.

Sarah