whenever i want to rest my weary self
i see him
sometimes i think i hear him
i feel so tourmented

i just want to empty out my head
take out everything
i just want to be blank
i want to be empty
like a zombie
nothing
zilch
zero

cos its always him inside of there

[SweetSunshine]

Bronee~
I understand.. I still get that way at times too. I know its difficult and scarey when we remember those times. The thing I have found that helps is to try to make good ... more happier memories to help keep the bad ones at bay. Plus working thru those other memories with a T helps alot too. Dont give upon being happy again because it can happen. You can feel free !!!

(((((((((((Brawny))))))))) safe hugs to you my dear friend. Please know I am thinking of you and I am only a pm away should you need to talk to someone. I am a good listener.. I promise.

Hugz
Bethy

[InACorner]

this is what it SHOULD BE

Everytime i close my eyes

whenever i want to rest my weary self
I see flowers
sometimes i think i hear wind chimes
I feel so peaceful

i just want to empty out my bladder
empty out the pee pee
I just want cupcakes
I want to be a movie star
like BARNEY
everything
all
a million

hehe wishing you happy thoughts darling
love always ...inny

((((((((((((((((bronee))))))))))))))

i can identify, but it will get better it will. i know how strong you are and how you wont let that pathetic excuse for a human being beat you - you're too clever for that - it will get better with every post and everything you write and every dream you have.

love you, kezza xoxoxoxoxoxo