Do you ever wonder..?

Do you ever wonder if the things you remember going through as a child really happened?

I never doubted the CSA until a few years ago when I finally told my family and was called a liar and my dad told me I probably confused normal curiosity with SA. Even though the abuser is 8yrs older than me. I *knew* it was wrong and wonder WHY I let it happen. I'm confused and wondering if what happened REALLY happened or if I am a liar. How can I remember things in detail and yet be told I made it all up?! I kept it all inside for 18yrs before I told someone I trusted. I feel like I've ruined HIS life by accusing him of this. I feel horribly guilty.

I think it's easy to doubt these things because it is so hard to wrap your mind around the fact that someone would do something like this to a child. Also, maybe it's easier to doubt/minimize - I know it is for me. There is a weird sense of power in self-blame/self-doubt. If you can tell yourself that it's not real, you can avoid it

I was doubted for many years by many people. I was also called a liar, among other things. Abusers don't want to admit what they have done so they attempt to turn it around on the victims and make the victims question themselves as form of self-protection

Children who get SA come from families where something ain't right. Perpetrators actually can sense who they can get away with it with. There are reasons why you aren't being supported by your family.

If he was 8 years older then you, you didn't let it happen when you were a child. He was in a position of authority and children respond to authority.