[Polykronic]

Just venting, I guess. My mother was/is narcissistic and abusive --rarely physically, but emotionally and psychologically and spiritually. Dad aids and abets her. My brother physically abused me all through childhood and adolescence and recently, in a moment of distress (and idiocy, I think), I told Mom about the abuse.

She immediately blamed me in a bunch of ways. Then told my Dad and my brother. Said I was crazy and "the voice of the devil" and threw a bunch of Scriptures at me. Said my brother denied it so therefore it didn't happen.

For once I stood up for myself, told her if she emailed me anymore mean letters they were going straight in the trash, unread.

Didn't hear from the family for months. They live in our hometown; I'm about five hundred miles away. Suits me fine.

Now Mom keeps calling. Not to apologize. Not to admit the abuse. Just to pretend nothing ever happened. And I just want her to leave me alone. Forever. Maybe I'm horrible for thinking she could go ahead and die in twenty years or so without me ever talking to her again, and that'd be just fine. But that's how I feel. She can keep Dad and my brother, too. I don't want them anywhere near me. And one day, when I have kids, they will not be allowed to see them --at least not alone, if at all.

My husband thinks family is important and we should reconcile, but is letting me take the lead since I know the situation best. I'm just so mad. I want her to go away and leave me alone. She'll never change; she's so narcissistic she thinks she's perfect. And super-holy. And I cant be around her sick mind games. So just somebody keep her far away from me.

Sometimes I fantasize about moving out of state and not even telling her my new address. My parents read my Twitter (I mostly only post jokes). That's more than they deserve.

[needfixing]

i am very happy for you to tell the truth even though it fell on deaf ears.
that's ok, i believe you, and this is part of healing.
when the time is right you will reunite with your family, no rush, but just remember you can't force someone to agree with you.
keep on healing, right now i am reading a book by charles stanly called "gifted of forgiveness."
may our CHRIST continue to heal you and guide you towards peace and freedom.