[suzzie]

to bootcamp t. with no resistence allowed. at all. just plow through the trauma. she keeps saying if i dont want to do the work. then maybe now isnt the right time to be in t. but i do want to do it. just not so fast. but i cant tell her that. she will say im not ready then. im scared to resist anything with her now. ill just have to make myself do it. ready or not. theres no worry of attachment here. not going to happen.

the homework and poems went ok. it was because i didnt want to do that empty chair thing. but its the first time she asked.

do you usually do the empty chair. in a third session. maybe the other ts were too gentle.

[nicoleflynn]

She sounds harsh. If you are afraid to tell her something (anything!), then something is wrong.

[Open Eyes]

Suzzie, it sounds like this T is trying to get you mad enough so you just let her have the history somehow. But it also could be that the other T's were too passive and you didn't accomplish anything with that kind of therapy.

I am sitting here wishing you videoed the session so I could see what this T's demeanor is or if she is really threatening or you just see it that way.

I does sound like she is too pushy. But she is getting you involved with the work. Maybe see how it goes for a bit. Keep coming and talking about it too.

(((Hugs)))
Open Eyes

[BLUEDOVE]

Suzie,
A good guide is,is she a nice,compassionate
caring human being? Does she treat you with the UTMOST RESPECT? If not,find another!
Deepest Respect,
jimindigo

[Sannah]

Does this government agency limit the number of visits?

[suzzie]

i did give the poems. which told stuff. yes im involved now. but its because of fear. maybe itll get better.

the only thing she mentioned about time. was that we would work together for 6 months. and then she would re-assess.

[Sannah]

I'm thinking that she is pushing because of the waitlist and budgets can be cut at any time in this political climate.

From me reading your posts over the last year it seems that you are doing better with this T. Do you agree?

[suzzie]

yes. i think will probably progress with her. but with a steeper and more bumpy path. but im going to try.

[Sannah]

People will rise up to or down to expectations. I know that you can do it Suzzie!

[rosesarered]

Run. Your T is not supposed to shove you into things you're not ready for. My very first T was like that and even when I told her how I felt, she didn't listen. Her favorite thing to say to me is that she didn't think I wanted to be there and that I wasn't willing to do the work. She pushed me so hard I fell into a majorly suicidal depression and got fired from my job because I couldn't function. A T is supposed to support and guide you through things, not tell you "do this or else", which it sounds like is pretty much what you're hearing.
Get out. Not every T and client fit well together. Finding the right person can be a process but you should ALWAYS be respected and handled with care.

[suzzie]

((((((rosesarered)))))) sorry you had the same experience. it is very difficult.

im hoping at my next session. she doesnt tell me again. that i shouldnt be there. she is extremely tough. but im going to try. and find a way to make it work. if i agree to everything she asks. it should go ok.

[rosesarered]

That's just it though, you shouldn't have to automatically agree with what
she says...this is YOUR counseling, not hers....she's not supposed to be a dictator.

[suzzie]

yes. youre right. but i dont want to make her mad again. i would like to have a good session. thats what i trying for. anyway.

[geez]

I'm leaving my T and so can you. But you have to do what's right for you.