[mibear]

I cant remember a time i wasn't ducking and weaving. My earliest menory is of me hiding between a dresser and a bed crying. Lets see if i can name them all... sibling abuse, emotional abuse by grandparent physical by parent melesting by brothers friend attempted rape abandoned by parent verbally by many bullying raped by brother in law emotionally by daughter and sever domestic by alcoholic spouse.
No im not on meds maybe i should be but i couldn't get them if i wanted to no money because my ptsd is keeping me from going outside so i cant work.
With my divorce i thought things better but he gaslighted the court he set it up to his favor with our daughters help.afterwards they told me that i should take note that just like they played court that if i try to see my son they will use them to crush me dead but i can disappear now but make my payments.
I dont know how to feel anything anymore. But the good thing is if all those well educated people. Could be pulled in. By them then me catching on early to them gives us a one up. I have had such a busy time of it. I am the oldest most worn out 43 yrs old i know

[LucyG]

I'm terribly sorry for all you've been through. The courts are a sham most of the time unless you have tons of money. Otherwise, good luck!!

I wish I had some advice for you, but since I don't, I just wanted to reply to your post so you'd know someone cared.

[mibear]

Originally Posted by LucyG

I'm terribly sorry for all you've been through. The courts are a sham most of the time unless you have tons of money. Otherwise, good luck!!

I wish I had some advice for you, but since I don't, I just wanted to reply to your post so you'd know someone cared.

Thank you Lucy,
It was very sweet of you to reply to my post. I know that for many it would be overwhelming. For me it was a daily battle to survive but it was my normal i didnt know there was anything different so i didnt crave it. I take that childs longing with me and when i can i try to help someone who've had a abusive childhood see how they live without it and move on up. So far i have helped 3 woman and 1 guy. All are doing great now.
I struggle some days are better then others . For me its the guilt i feel for not stopping any of them to stop. I never stop believing in my faith its gotten me this far he wont let me down now.

[Sannah]

Hi mibear, I'm so sorry that all of that happened to you. You are helping a lot of people. Can you accept some help for yourself? I'm glad that you are free from the abuse now. Let us support you here.