[avoice]

She mention to work on my abuse. I agree to. Almost every day now all these memories keep poring in. Stuff i did not even remember. I'm home most of the days alone. So that's all i think of i get freaked out. Sometimes i go to my closet to be safe. Sometimes I fall asleep wake up wondering how i got there. I just want to forget everything.

[Sannah]

I hope you tell your T next time about how you are being flooded with these memories. Keep us updated on how you are doing?

[Christina86]

((((((((avoice)))))))))

Agreeing with the suggestion to talk to your T. Flooding memories IS normal, but it shouldn't be incapacitating you - there should be a sort of happy medium, where you're still able to get through it, day by day.)

[avoice]

Today I was on my way to see my t. I call to conform my appt and I told the lady at the desk that i get payed tomorrow is that a problem, She said yes that is a problem we need the copay up front. I said oh than cancel my appt. She said ok it got me thinking I have been coming every week cause t wanted me. Had a bad week and thought i really need to talk to her. i'm a regular there and so is my son. They let me come before and pay later. and I always pay only one time that happen she was rude to me to. I thought heck with all of it i don't need no therapy anyways. So i called her back and said i won't be needing her services no t and no med dr anymore. She said i'll let them know. lately i have been going through mood swings. I never like harming other people i always harm myself instead. It's like i just don't care anymore.

[avoice]

Well i called them back wanted to talk to my t. Got a fellow this time started telling him the problem. He told me they were having phone problems so make this quick. I said just forget it i also said the f word to them. Than I get a voice mail from them asking me to call them back so i can rescheduled. So i'm think to myself and pondering and came to conclusion That it's all about money.

[SoupDragon]

Sounds like over efficient reception staff, whose focus is on forms / balancing the books etc. etc. My T always tells me never to quit because of a reaction to a feeling. I hope you are able to reschedule with your T.

[avoice]

Well i do like my t coming from me that is good. I just think the front desk staff were rude and they need to get some bedside matters. This is not the first time they were rude.

[melstar]

Wow, they really do need to find some manners. That is not how they should be treating customers. Especially to tell someone to make it quick. I hope you don't give up, it sounds like you really need this T. It sounds like you have really been through hell and back over the past few days, and could really use someone to talk to. Keep fighting hun, we are here for you!! Come on chat if you need to.

[Sannah]

I would suggest that you talk all of this over with your T, even paying the copay the next week. And tell her that the front desk staff are rude. Keep your eye on the prize and don't let these setbacks push you off your course.