[Ticli-Otops]

For months, now... everytime I would close my eyes, to go to sleep... I would see everything that I saw the times that I got raped. And I could feel it, as if it were happening at that moment. But after I got raped, last Sunday... it happens everynight... no matter what I do. And it's so intense, and it gets to the point where i'm sobbing uncontrollably, because the physical pain was too much to handle. What I need to know is.... is this normal? I know i've mentioned things like this happening before, but I didn't think it would ever get this intense. It's nearly impossible to sleep, now. I'm so tired, and yeah... that doesn't help with it at all!

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Ticli-Otops

For months, now... everytime I would close my eyes, to go to sleep... I would see everything that I saw the times that I got raped. And I could feel it, as if it were happening at that moment. But after I got raped, last Sunday... it happens everynight... no matter what I do. And it's so intense, and it gets to the point where i'm sobbing uncontrollably, because the physical pain was too much to handle. What I need to know is.... is this normal? I know i've mentioned things like this happening before, but I didn't think it would ever get this intense. It's nearly impossible to sleep, now. I'm so tired, and yeah... that doesn't help with it at all!

for some people yes its normal to have this kind of reaction and for others no it isnt.

here where I live and work, whats happening to you is called intrusive thoughts, flashbacks and body memories. for me yes it was normal for me to go through having intrusive thoughts, flashbacks and body memories due to and revolving around the traumas, I went through.

we cant tell you if its normal for you, that would be trying to diagnose you and we are not allowed to do that here.

the only way you can find out if this is normal for you is by contacting your treatment providers.

[yellowted]

it is your brain trying to make sense of it and failing, it is able to process it happened, but not the why or how to make it better. talk to your doc or pdoc if you have one, a rape councillor should be able to help you through this difficult time.
in the meantime try to think of other things as you fall asleep, what worked for me was thinking up a story about going on holiday, the tiny details of the colour of the sea, the smell coming from the bar i passed on the way to the hotel etc, all fictional, but in enough detail to distract my brain from the nightmares. on the occasions when the nightmare came i would wake up and conciously think about the story again till i fell asleep, after a while i managed to do this without waking up until eventually i woke up one morning not remembering even having the nightmare that night.

[Sierrarose]

Ticli-Otops,

It takes time to recover from traumatic events - sometimes a whole lot of time. PTSD comes into play here. It’s real and it takes time to recover. How long it takes can depend on how you choose to deal with it. I hope this doesn’t sound too harsh…. But I find getting mad helps. Memories and flashback can wear us down and cause sleepless nights. Don’t allow that person to go on hurting you through your memories of the traumatic event. Let the thoughts come and go, they will for a time, but refuse to allow them to cause you anymore pain.

[Ticli-Otops]

Thanks, guys. I just hate being so tired.:O If I can ever get to sleep, the longest I can sleep is like....2 hours. I'm exhausted.

[JLarissaDragon]

I still have nightmares from the times I was raped and abused as a teenager, though not very often these days. Trauma can leave wounds and scars that take awhile to heal. Be good to yourself and seek counseling. Healing takes time and determination.

[Ticli-Otops]

I was finally sleeping good for the first time in a long time, and my boyfriend decided to wake me up, crying... saying that his stomach hurt. Yay. This is why whenever he does something like that, I drop his phone on his face while hes sleeping, and quickly turn over so he's left laying there, wide awake and confused.

[samysteav]

Originally Posted by Ticli-Otops

For months, now... everytime I would close my eyes, to go to sleep... I would see everything that I saw the times that I got raped. And I could feel it, as if it were happening at that moment. But after I got raped, last Sunday... it happens everynight... no matter what I do. And it's so intense, and it gets to the point where i'm sobbing uncontrollably, because the physical pain was too much to handle. What I need to know is.... is this normal? I know i've mentioned things like this happening before, but I didn't think it would ever get this intense. It's nearly impossible to sleep, now. I'm so tired, and yeah... that doesn't help with it at all!

Hello,
Give the strict punishment who raped you. And listen you are not any toy for them you have your life and take your decision.
I am with you....

[Ticli-Otops]

Originally Posted by samysteav

Hello,
Give the strict punishment who raped you. And listen you are not any toy for them you have your life and take your decision.
I am with you....

All I know is that this is going to get worse, before it gets better. I haven't even begun to feel the full pain of everything. And my counselor told me that it's obvious that everything bad that has happened to me, is all going to fully hit me all at once, once I let myself feel the real pain of it.