[Lexicon78]

Is it possible to recover from a monster when you still harbor feelings for them? This is probably one of the secrets I have.

The very man that hurt me the most is also the one guy I could've probably married and loved. Jim, my ex, wasn't like most abusers. He wasn't verbally abusive, he never physically abused me in the sense that is most common, but for less than 5 minutes of our relationship he became a monster.

How can I heal when I still care for this creep? What is wrong with me? Is recovery possible at all? My old T asked me if I still loved him. I was shocked at the question because I had thought that I hated him...but I didn't...not really, anyways.

My dad always says that there is good in people. Sadly, I think this is true for everyone...even the bad ones. No wonder I feel a mess.

With Jim everything was perfect. We were the perfect match romatically and our signs were perfect matches (Taurus & Cancer). He had a strong personality that just drives me wild. (Andy highly lacks this quality: he's a mama's boy and a wuss!)

Why did Jim have to ruin everything???

[Rhapsody]

YES.... You can heal from this monster and the effects from his abuse.... remember to FORGIVE is more for YOU than it is for him.

AND....... Jim ruined it all for he is but only human and well, as humans we suck at times.


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

yea its possible and does happen. Many many survivors find themselves in abusive relationship. It starts out harmless and hearts and flowers and one day the person realizes its a dangerious situation and needs to get out of it. I landed in such a relationship. I loved the man to his death but the bottom line was having him in my life was not healthy for me or my child. As much as I loved him I had to do what was right by my child and myself. I still have problems from that relationship but I am able to put it in perspctive and go on with my life. Give it time it will happen for you too.