[Rhapsody]

Just WANTING / NEEDING to share, as to release.

I have been having some very violent and sexually frightening dreams..... I am usually trying to save a little girl from being abused by a man or her father and all while witnessing the abuse in full details and body images..... then the abuser ends up meeting his demise in a very cruel and violent way, inflected upon him by me and some times the children.

While I can understand what the dreams are representing - they are still unsettling when I awake..... I hate the sexual nature of the dreams and the intensity of how cruel one can be to another.


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[desirae]

Eh, I hate how dreams can make you feel bad even after your done sleeping, I have experienced this same sort of uncomfortable feelings after a dream. Have you discussed these dreams with a Doc or anything? What I've learned about dreams and sleep is that dreams are second long visions in your mind, and they appear in deep sleep. Well if your asleep, but not in deep sleep, and you are aware of your mind and dreams then some how control your dream. I have done this many times and have discovered it helps big time.

I used to have dreams about being abandoned and left to die, I then decided I wanted to control this dream in my lesser sleep and changed the outcome. I've never had that dream again.

I'd give it a try and see what happens.

[mtd]

Rhapsody, it's amazing to me to read this right now because I've been going through much of the same thing. I think it's my anger coming to the surface. The images I come up with are grusome and they really stick with me. But then again, what I went through was grusome also. My T says it might be my emotions expressing what I really wanted to do at the time to the ones who abused me. Like it's part of what I wanted to do at the time to protect myself and show the anger I was too afraid to show then. My T has also really encouraged me to just let the feelings flow now that they are coming up. I believe in that.

Be well,

mtd

[Rhapsody]

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I think it's my anger coming to the surface. The images I come up with are grusome and they really stick with me. But then again, what I went through was grusome also. My T says it might be my emotions expressing what I really wanted to do at the time to the ones who abused me. Like it's part of what I wanted to do at the time to protect myself and show the anger I was too afraid to show then.

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I agree MTD............................. now I just have to wait out the storm, for I often have a hard time making the transition back to normal life after experiencing such a terrifying and disturbing dream.


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[Rhapsody]

Had another bad dream last night.... this time it involved the justice system and how badly it SUCKS! - I was fighting for the lives of millions of kids that were being kidnapped and then reprogrammed and surgically made over to be what the new owner wanted of them.

There were many scenes of me walking to court to testify against these evil people and others were trying to stop me, with deadly force..... they knew I held the truth to their perverted doings.
.... Sex, Drugs, Porn, Torture devices, Knives, Guns and Animals were every where the naked eye could see.

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What I felt after I woke up and remembered my dream.....
That the legal system had let me down - BIG TIME - when we had to go to court after my mother learned about one of my abusers sexual misconduct against me..... I was made out to the bad guy, for they (mostly men, even the judge) said that I must had lead my abuser on with the way I dressed..... yeah right, me at 11 years old, no personal body development to speak as of yet, and in a Holly Hobby gown that went from my neck to my ankles lead this grown man on sexually.
He served no prison time and was only made to leave the house...... which BTW he returned to in 3 months.... while the abuse stopped after that my life and the hell I now live in only started.

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LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[damajdancer]

i dont know if it makes you feel any better but the JS never helped me either.
but that shouldn't bring you down, because they haven't been through what you went through, so they have no idea how much it can hurt a person. and i think thats why they never help anyone any more.
i think you are a very brave person.
-megan-