Emotional abuse survivor

I would say that I am definately a survivor of verbal and emotional abuse. As a kid, I was different -- I still am. I wore/wear hearing aids, and had troubles with my nose. Kids just loved picking on me about that. It was elementary school -- I cannot remember one good moment. The kids were such jerks.

The teachers were no better! When I would try telling them what was happening, they just thought I was just getting attention. Somehow everything was always MY fault --everything. The teachers just loved blaming everything on me.

One day, I was swarmed by a large group of bigger kids (everyone was bigger than me). I didnt tell anyone. I was too embarassed, and I just knew that nothing would happen if I did tell. My parents found out about it from another mom, who's kid went to the same school. They felt terrible, they had no idea. They did go to the principle (another major FKG ASHL) But of course, nothing came of it. Just as I thought. Nobody gave a %#@&#! about me in that sh*thole.

Needless to say, I felt that I was damaged after that. I had almost no self esteem to speak of. Years and years of being scapegoated, yelled at (yes, by the teachers), being treated like dirt or a thorn in their shoe.

Thank god in high school, people left me the FK alone! I'd rather be ignored than treated like a thorn in someones shoe.

I'm glad I've shared this. It's probably nothing compared to what some of you have gone through. I hope I havent triggered anyone. Well, thanks for listening.

--Desiree

Hi Desiree,

I'm sooo sorry about what you had to go through. I have been verbally and emotionally abused as well and I hear your pain.

You said, "It's probably nothing compared to what some of you have gone through." I'd like to say in response that I don't think abuse can really be compared because to each person who has suffered, the pain is real and it matters.

(((((hugs)))))

Elizabeth

kids can be such jerks. i am sooo sorry that you got picked on like that. stupid ignorant behavior from stupid ignorant kids.
i got picked on for orthopaedic shoes and white sox for Pete's sake. Stupid stupid stupid. (let's go out back and throw ice cubes against a brick wall and yell bad words.......) stupid ignorant people suck.

i agree with Hillbunny B when they say that every persons tramau is as bad as the next persons. it should never be compared, although it is easy to compare at times.

Kids of that age really can be nasty, most of them hopefully grow out of it and realise the upset they have caused, but there are always some who live life like it, but they never get far. it is always us stronger ones, the "victims" i suppose you could say, that stand taller than any of them. when it comes to being better human beings, there is no competition, we all will win hands down.

it is bad of the teachers though for acting like that, it is highly unproffesional on their behalf. it sounds like they just couldnt be bothered to approach the bullies face to face, they would rather try to shut you up than deal with it. there are alot of these people in the world too.

take care and keep smiling.

Thanks, guys!