[biiv]

just back from T. thought i was going to throw up on her floor. am so dizzy and spacy and scared. i couldnt quite say it but i so nearly nearly did. i told her about waking up in a strange guys room by myself but couldnt tell her what had happened. i just couldnt do it. then started shaking and i guess flashbacks? was just seeing pictures like they were physically hitting me. why did she make me leave at the end of the session? i needed so badly for her to see how much i need her. she said she would hold me thourhg the tough stuff and now im by myself.

[Junerain]

for biiv,

I also have seen pictures like they were physically hitting me....it is scary...your T must care at least a little to say, "I will hold you through the tough stuff....." I, too, find it hard to come to the end of the session...it's like hey now I'm all by myself....your T probably wishes she didnt have time constraints either..I have the same neediness for my T to see how bad I need him. Perhaps your T has e-mail then you would be able to express these things in another way. Write back let us know how you are doing, we care..you seem to have begun to address serious issues perhaps things can only get better once I addressed my serious issues things SLOWLY got better again we care about you here and let us know how you are...

next time maybe you can tell her you don't feel safe to leave. *safe hugs*

[biiv]

Thank you so much for your support Junerain. i feel a bit better this morning. still on edge and very anxious but better. would be great to be able to just curl up in bed for the day though. i need to get these emotions back into whatever box they came out of. i have to go now. cant think too much.
your support is very much appreciated though. thank you and im sorry you know what im talking about.
take care

[biiv]

fraid i cant impose on her like that esthersvirtue. dumb maybe but there ya go. thank you for the hugs

[Fuzzybear]

I understand where you're coming from. Please let us know how things go.
((((( biiv )))))

Take good care,
Fuzzy

[biiv]

Thanks for the hugs fuzzy (((((fuzzy))))) back atcha if you would like hugs,
biiv