Memories TRIGGER WARNING

All I see is him. He is all over. He won't leave me alone. He's either choking me, dragging me around the house or r*ping me. I just want to be free of him. Why won't the memories stop or just go away for a little bit. I am tired of feeling him in me, on me around me. I just want a normal life. Please make them go away.

I know how you feel.
I go threw the same thing, but not all the time. I have tried medication? Are you in therapy? LIfe is pretty sucky as it is but it even sucker for those of us that have PTSD or any other kind of mental illness. Have you tried talking to someone abou this? I dont know what else to say except you are not the only one that goes through it.

((((Lindsay)))) I'm so sorry.
I can't relate to the actual issue, but I can relate to your pain.
Hang in there, don't give him power he shouldn't have on you.
PM me anytime
~~~~tons of hugs your way~~~~

Hello I have PTSD as well you need to see someone and try to get into treatment, for this issue. PTSD this severe is causing harm to you mentally, and help is available for PTSD that is very well structures. I hope you seek the help that you need soon, you are not alone,ane it can get better in time, with the right therapy. Take care Soidhonia

It takes time to heal from the bad things that have happened to us. I try to move on but get caught up in the past. Sorry for what has happened to you.
Safe Hugs!

There are some things that can NOT be undone. I learned this the hard way after trying for YEARS to forget crimes done against me. And the harder I tried, the more entangled I was in them. With every pull of my memory, the ropes around my mind and soul became tighter and tighter.

Now I am at peace.

Are the memories still there? Yes.
So how am I free?

I realized that for me personally, every time I had a memory, I had to take charge of my mind and my heart. When I was in the fetal position crying my eyes out... I would have to make myself stop. This took a good amount of strength and I had to learn how to do this. Then I would consciously SHIFT my internal attention to something else. At first, it was ANYTHING else. In fact, at first, I would shift the memory away from the most painful, and I would SELECT another one that I felt was "not as bad" and I would continue to cry through the pain of my dark night.

Soon, I was able to see I could control where I focused my thoughts after I had already fallen into the memory trap. This allowed me to mentally be able to climb back out on my own.

I realized after I learned this skill of survival that I could take back my own power this way. Now the abusers where no longer in charge of me or my memory. I was FINALLY the one making the calls !!!

With all blessings your way,
Wendi

((((((( Lindsay ))))))))