[krisakira]

I am a survivor of a 1 time csa incident. That is all I want to reveal at this time. Thank you for reading my post.

[the abyss]

i am sorry that happened .
take care

[Jordy]

If this is the first time you mention it (as it seems to be) it's a big step forward. Take your time and only tell as much as you're comfortable with. It will get better!

[Bill3]

I am very sorry that csa happened to you.

[krisakira]

I did not remember a lot of details until a few months ago. That's when I opened up and told my husband and my mother but she did not want to hear about it, and I also told my T but didn't want to go into details. I am considering going into details tomorrow at T. I'm scared though and don't know if I can handle it.

[Themeanreds]

I am very sorry you have gone through this. I have as well. It is very difficult for me to discuss with my T and my pdoc. I am really uncomfortable with going into details, and I feel that I should not have to. Do not feel that you are obligated to do so. You do not have to share anything with your T that you are not comfortable sharing.

[Bill3]

I am very sorry that your mother did not want to hear about it. That must have been very painful for you.

[sweepy62]

If it helps you can write the stuff down that you are not verbally comfortably sharing and handing it to her, I am currently in the middle of this scratching the surface, so good luck to you, we are here to support you.

[rhoades87]

Originally Posted by krisakira

I am a survivor of a 1 time csa incident. That is all I want to reveal at this time. Thank you for reading my post.

Hi I'm new to the group and I know how you feel, I also am a survivor of csa! I went through its from 9 years old to 18 ! I too told my mother and she didn't seem to care or want to know and still continued to have him in the home even after I told her and gave her video evidence!!

Anyways it's hard to open Jo, I have had to because I reopened the court case against the person who did it to me, it still is not easy and gets me down and I suffer from PTSD because of the traumatic things I had to go to!

Anyways sorry to hear it happened to you, if you need someone to just chat to I'm always available xx

[krisakira]

Thanks for the support everyone. My T cancelled today so I won't see him until next monday... I wonder if it makes a difference whether I see him or a female. I'm comfortable with him usually. There are 2 other DBT therapists I could see who are female. I think I might try seeing one of them. In the meantime I guess I could write things down like you guys mentioned.

I do not know your history.... i do not know your level of pain or anxiety.... but I do know that the level of my anger soars whenever I read about csa. just makes me want to crucify the bastard.........

[krisakira]

I was able to talk to a female T that does group that I go to, and she helped me a lot with separating my current situation from the past. I didn't tell her details but she helped me by saying it wasn't my fault and she encouraged me to talk to my regular T about the details or whatever I feel comfortable sharing with him.