[HazelGirl]

I hurt today. Nothing in particular, just inner pain and sadness. So many painful moments and wounds, and so much I missed out on. I just wish I had a chance to be normal. But I never did. I wish I had real parents. But I didn't. I wish I had someone telling me I was worthwhile and valuable. But I didn't. I wish I had people I could go to for advice and help. But I don't. I am 22, and feel alone in this world, with no real roots or anything to anchor me down inside.

[kaliope]

I am sorry that you grew up this way. I grew up much the same so I sense the pain you are feeling. The thing is you can build the kind of life you want now that you aren't a kid anymore under someone elses power. you can choose what kind of people you want surrounding you in your life. choose nurturing kind loving people who can give you all the things that you missed out on. it is all up to you now. take care.

[sweepy62]

Hazel girl you are worth it , it's what you would tell me, I'm sorry your needs were not met and did not have real parents.

I'm sorry you don't feel anchored , you are so you young. I grew up same way I had everything a kid could want( materialistic) but never the stuff I really needed, now in my pathetic forties I'm craving it.

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[Frankbtl]

Hi Hazelgirl, If you weren't/can't be "normal" after what you've experienced (which I'd say is SO over-rated anyway) you still have the chance to be better than "normal". You are still young, and you have the chance to make your life into what YOU want it to be.
There's been a few people in your life who you would have been much better off without but they are a fraction of the people who can come into your life and guaranteed there will be so many more than that few who actually deserve to be in your life if you give them the privilege of being there.
Your life really is now your own (at last) and you can start making up some time. Now what do YOU want to do. Where do YOU want to go. Don't let your parents or anything else take anything away from you. You've paid the price, now it's YOUR TIME!!
Maybe that can involve you getting some help with things if you think you need it but now you CAN/will be able to control what goes on for you.
And now......I am (and I'm sure a lot more people on here are!) telling you that you ARE worthwhile and valuable....
And WE are here for you to come to for help and advise. You're not alone!!
So one step at a time, one day at a time, and don't forget that you can be better than "normal".
Alison

[HazelGirl]

Thanks. I was having a hard day yesterday. It happens, and I actually think it's good for me. At least, it's better than pretending that things are fine.

[Rzay4]

I'm glad your feeling better, you are worth it. You do have people you can rely on, everyone on this forum. It's so hard at your age as I was there not too long ago. Power through, you can do it!

[Frankbtl]

Originally Posted by HazelGirl

Thanks. I was having a hard day yesterday. It happens, and I actually think it's good for me. At least, it's better than pretending that things are fine.

You're right and sometimes it can be as much about letting things out/go. Really good that you're feeling better. Just remember we're here for you.........
Alison