[nauticalgyrl]

I was severely abused repeatedly by my mother who was psychotic and father sexually abused me. I have been in and out of therapy. I can not seem to feel anything hence I never seem to make progress. I cannot remember most all of it, hence cannot make progress. I am wondering how to feel and how to remember I feel so stuck so numb and cant figure out how to reach inside and deal with it, like it is just NOT there . No memories , no feelings. So will I remail "sick" the rest of my life . Chronic depression, anxiety, dont need people. Isolate, abuse alcohol etc. Am off drugs alcohol on meds which suck in therapy and still NOTHING.

[Perna]

You have to start, like with anything else, with very small steps from where you are. Have to learn to feel about things here and now, prefer one "safe" thing over another, get use to doing that and feeling the preference and then gradually work your way back.

Do you prefer steak or chicken? How do you like your eggs, etc. What time of day do you like? (my time is 4:30 p.m. :-) What day of the week is your "favorite." My T and I changed days my session was on and it made a difference. Looking at that (the why it made a difference) was good practice for seeing smaller differences and seeing how I felt about my T/therapy, etc. Eventually you'll start tripping over triggers and things that remind you of other things and small pieces of things will come back to you and you'll begin to feel more/"better" about more important things.

[FaithisAlive]

I have struggled with this very same problem and i think perna is right about baby steps...we have to let it happen and not try to make it happen, ya know?

My T says it took years for me to get to this stage of numbness and its not going to get better right away. we just have to stay with it and do the work so we can heal.

Don't give up... it will happen for you when the time is right. Good Luck.. Faith