Why

Why does T seem to care. No one else has seemed to and now she does and I don't know what to do with this. Sending off alarm bells, but it feels safe and good too. I'm so tired of feeling like I have two parts of me debating and fighting all the time.
Does anyone relate to this?

Hello Lightcatcher. It's nice to meet you. It's great that your T cares. I have tried to find a good one, but gave up a long time ago.

I hope you can have a life long relationship with your T. I mean patient/doctor relationship. I think I'll start looking for one again. I need it.

Sincerely,

Piraeus

I can relate. I never understand why anyone cares about me. As for the two sides.... I have what I've recently been calling my logical side and my illogical side. They are constantly at battle. Sometimes the logical side wins but usually it is still the illogical side that wins.
Big hugs! I hope that you are able to accept your T's caring about you and really take it in, because you do deserve to be cared about even if you don't think so!

Be well,

Celtic

I can very much relate. I have had a few T's that care over the years, and it still shocks me when they do. And like celtic said, I have 2 sides (maybe more?) but the emotional side seems to win out most of the time. Sending <3

Thank you all for your kind words! Yes I've been lucky to find a T who is very good at what she does.

Celtic - T said the same line as you, that I deserve to be cared about :-). Thank you.

I'm fighting Ts care so much but also want it so much too. I hope that I can just accept it.
I never knew how much the abuse and neglect I had grown up has affected my life/thinking/ everything until truly this year. What a journey!

Isn't it amazing the garbage you collect and bring with you. I was abused by my father and 2 husbands. I've had a very difficult few years with deep depression and suicide attempts. I've been very fortunate to have had 2 great T's. I have just started the very difficult work on facing my past and come face to face with the emotions I buried in order to survive. I've been avoiding this for years because I just didn't want to feel

Logically I know this will do me a lot of good. The emotional side just wants to hide.