[Woman_Overboard]

I was molested by my father, and I know I'm not even able to recall all of it. Sometimes I get weird little images/clips, but usually never whole pieces.

((Back Story))The truth about my father came out into the open, in a really twisted way (while talking to my mother), and then after my mother tried to act like everything was still normal, like a huge bombshell wasn't just dropped. I stopped talking to her and she would call me excessively, leaving me messages telling me I was causing her a great deal of pain.

Anyway, yesterday I remembered something that really freaked me out (not sure if it's real?), but it was about my my mother. She was holding a pillow over my face, I remembered what it felt like, panicky, heart racing. I remember thinking she must not know I can't breathe? Now I am freaked out and confused. I don't know of it was just some bizarre daymare, that my mind made up, or if it's real. Either way, I am hurting

[gma45]

Hi Women Overboard, I don't have the answers for you. I was thinking tho if it were me I would be feeling like it was hard to breath just because of all the phone calls. That would be enough to get me in a panic mode. I hope you feel better soon.

[seraphic]

I'm so sorry this is happening to you. I'm in a somewhat similar place, where I have faint memories of "suspicious" behavior from my stepfather and very little memory of anything else. It's tough, not remembering what happened, and not being certain whether or not you can trust the things you do remember.

It's ok to be confused. Whether or not specific memories turn out to be perfectly accurate, your feelings are absolutely real, and I think they're a good guide for you. We're here for you as you figure things out and deal with you family. I hope things hurt less soon.

[psychfan1]

It's horrible to acknowledge any bad memories are true, and it does take time to piece things together. It sounds like a good idea to use grounding techniques or other strategies to help with flashbacks. Journalling or something creative can help a lot.
Flashbacks can't be "false" as such - they are a symptom of unprocessed trauma so something traumatic must have happened, and do often come in pieces (not exactly like the full cinema experience which goes from start to end). All I can say is that another person can't tell you exactly what happened, and it may be sometime before you really know. I'm sorry you are dealing with this.