[desperado]

I'm just going to write b/c I don't feel up to talking to anyone right now.

I hate what has happened to me in my life. I just want to move far, far away & attempt to start my life over.

I want to move to a deserted island. To be alone, with nothing but the warm breeze, ocean water & palm trees..........so no one else can ever hurt me again.

That's it.

[sabby]

(((((desperado)))))

Sorry you have been hurt.

Not eveyone will hurt you though. Some people will also love you.

Sometime we just have to take a chance.

[cajun]

Desy, I feel your pain.

desy (((((((((desy))))))))

i feel your pain too. i'm holding your hand xxxxx

[Talulah]

((((((((Des))))))))

I'd love that island too....hoping you can find one in your world anyway.

[desperado]

Thank you all ((((((((((((((((((((((( everyone who replied and gave support ))))))))))))))))))))))).

I honestly believe that nobody loves me. Except perhaps my dog. But he is gone now. I wish I could afford to get a new dog. I loved my dog & need a new one to love.

That's why I changed my mind. I don't want to go to the island anymore. I just want to fade away into nothingness.

That's it.

if you fade into nothingness you take me with you - if you go to the island i'm coming with you.

lets do the island thing and we can put everything on it that we love-no bad memories, no pain no black clouds. just nice things.

loveya, jinny (kerry)

[Talulah]

I like the island too, so I shall invite myself if that's ok....

Nothingness, is already here, so let's go sunbathing instead and feel the breezes gently brush our cheeks..

You will have companions there des...

[desperado]

(((((((((Kerry)))))))))) (((((((((((Tal)))))))))))

Let's go.

des

[Numbers]

yeah an island sounds good.. somewhere to burry it all without leaving a treasure map.

[desperado]

I like the way you think, Is.

You can come, too.

Love,

des

[desperado]

Writing down my feelings since no one to chat w/..................

Changed my mind. Moving to desolate island, alone, but bringing a puppy to love.......and also will swim w/ the dolphins.........

Animals can't hurt you like people do. (At least not intentionally). Dogs are the best. I would really love a new dog.

Love the ocean & love to swim.......would maybe finally find some peace w/ the dolphins. Happy, incredibly intelligent creatures.

Thank god for animals.

[Talulah]

No, des, I won't let you go alone, I'm already on your boat and you'd have to throw me off to go alone. I know you'd never do that, so I brought my cats to keep us and your dog company. They'll run free while we make sandcastles and climb trees.

yes, lets build a giant treehouse so that we may see beyond the beach into the abyss of the ocean and all the waves....

[JustAPixie]

(((((((( desperado )))))))))

I am so sorry that you have to experience this hurt and rejection. In a way you can think of PC as an island where you can go to, a safe haven without fear and judgement... I'll always be here if you need someone.

[desperado]

(((((((((((((Tal))))))))))))))

You are very sweet.

I've packed my shovel & pail & tools.

[desperado]

(((((((((((((((Justapixie))))))))))))))))

Thank you for your support.

Yes, PC has really helped me.